Treated like a queen
Now afraid of her majesty

Reluctantly, I have seen
confidence becoming vanity

From self-love to narcissism
ongoing insanity

From king to servant
emotional tragedy

You put me on a pedestal
Where everyone could see me.
You asked for a favour,
Then another and another.
"Don't let me down!"
You were joking,
But you're eyes adored me.
I couldn't fail,
I couldn't let you down,
I couldn't breathe.

I tried,
That's all I can say.

listen,
I was still covered in placenta when they locked me in this golden cage

fast at work,
they didn't care how calloused their hands got
rough ropes fed through the pulleys,
and sewed into the heavy haze of distraction.

listen,
I promise you,
if they could leave this pedestal and share the warmth that is burning and bubbling for them, they would do it;
but the fall would **** them first.

listen,
there are two ways to rob someone of their humanity-
to idolise them
and to ignore them;
so perhaps we all share the same emptiness that way.

Better to stand on my own two clay feet,
than bolster someone else’s crumbling tarsals and fallen arches.