I'd hear the word
And recoil from it
The thought of prayer
Left me disgusted
How hard it is
To face each day
While gripping nihilism
So intensely that
Your knuckles turn white

What's the point
Of goals and dreams
If everything
Means nothing
And when you die
It's just like it was
Before you were born
You don't exist and
You don't even know it

Why waste my time
Doing anything of value
When I can drown myself
In drugs and *****
And still expire
Just the same as you

Yet once in a while
That question would
Push it's way into
My consciousness
"How could all of this be meaningless?"

The seed was planted
And as it grew
It broke through
That existential dread
Leaving just enough room
For hope to crawl in

I started to think that
Maybe there's more
To all of this chaos
Than anything I could
Ever comprehend
And who am I
To be so sure there's not

Then slowly my
Perspective shifted
My mind was open
And I no longer
Viewed the world
As upside down

Though the universe
Will always remain
A mystery
And the truth is something
I will never catch
For today,
I find myself okay
With "maybe..."

a decimal of time
wedged between a tile
of a room - unknown
it could have been a kitchen or the delirious floor of a bustling shop
down to the tedium of banter and the slow trickle of something like
a cultural shift
inside a downtrodden window she stared too long until she was
unrecognizable by her and those around her
disappearing from picture frames and unable to remember
what it was like to say something of importance
her tongue now a foreign agent unsure if it still served a purpose
other than being in someone else's mouth
her shirt pocket always containing something of a thrill
like pearls or cigarettes
but now there was nothing in those pockets
tea bags were now placed in jars and her nails never veneer various colors but the same **** that had enthralled her years earlier
now blending in with the canvas outfits she wore to be reminded of a hobby that could have meant something
if only she believed in anything

Hi. Do you care enough to hear me whine?
I fear that you don’t see me
collecting dust in the dim corner of your room.
And while you stand and stare,
completely absorbed by your own despair,
I remain
ready to serve you  
and your meaningless life.
I can clean your room, yet I can’t clean your mind
of the false reality exemplified by your kind.


We are similar though, you and I.
Wasting our time amassing, acquiring, accumulating.
Honestly, we’re mere specks of life,
surrendering to realities constructed by our minds.
Don’t you know that your beloved earthly pleasures
are one and the same as the ******* that I collect?
Hard-earned, elusive, temporal, disposable.
Its laughable how ignorant you are;
consumed by your own subliminal thoughts,
leaving you searching for the remnants of what is and what is not.


Can’t you see the fallacies present in your head?
Gleaming yet blinding, salient yet obscure.
Armed with benevolent promises
that ultimately leave you for dead.
Can’t you see that what you crave
will inevitably **** you down to your grave?
Incessantly coated with wondrous, tempting illusions
that disguise its true nature--garbage.
Garbage. Connect the dots, you fool.
Can’t you see that you and I are one and the same?

All the blessings;                                                  The **** of the Holy Spirit,
3 1/2 Stories of anger of terrible ideas!
George Golanini, the gradient of George,          King
George of 3 Gray scents.                                                     Go to the cathedral
for the funeral's funeral. Everyone heard about them,
the phone came to Pharaoh,
the others were asleep and very happy and delighted.
Hold the tooth with your fingers.
It is made of silk, but not in chains.
drink. Asian-American tigers
have 3 American and German citizens.
Six German frogs offer language arts,
computer games in the bank of the United States.
You lose your freedom of arrest.
The relatives of William Tell have found the world.
Mexico breaks the white list.
The population of Saudi Arabia
is about 400 grams. 2. Try adding placemarks,
check boxes and prices. Thank you for the devil,
the prophets, the prophets
and the good poets. Cornflowers,
A small book begins with a small western phrase.
Women's position. The oil descends
on the mountains.              This is a golden crown
and a golden gold symbol.
Use negation nəgāSHən Definitions
of negation Substantive 1,
the contradiction or negation
of something must be confirmation
or negation of the findings
Synonyms: negation of contradiction,
repudiation's refutation of refutation;
nullify the cancellation's revocation,
repeal the abrogation 2, the absence
or the opposite of something
in reality, or positive evil is not
only the negation of goodness;
Synonyms: opposite opposite
opposites opposite, converse
converse, inverse absence
of examples of negation.
It can only be identified
by its negation of modernism;
Because its architecture is free
of perception, it has no form
of its own.  29 more examples
of Synonyms of negation.

Caroline is sitting in the dark;
The black,     and black black juice's shade,
2 records the unique shifting image.
Brian created the world as black and white,
licked and healed and saw the shadow.
Northeast, Great Food, Moon House,
Acid Green French Soul, Spirit, Ghost,
Kenyan Counterfeit Police, New York,
New York and Queens a few years ago.
Soft, pretty,                        and others use a playground that plays and plays...
Igor's Yiddish children's very old ****** dreams
famous for British Computer,                                                  and
the Computer
Language Computer Museum in Mexico;
Mother's mother,                                      Johnny John and bird-men
Sisera mēšekeridi discovers Noah's *** or ****** life,
rotary engine ****** Bhoj yep ini INI    republic of the republic in the ruined scattered opening will be held in December,
but five dogs,                                                         animal spirit ball-greed girl
but the presence of deadly stars,
in fact, devil's play,                                                            ­             ulcers inik'ik'e.                            Toshi's crazy something to ask Paola to sleep,
Irish green plastic coils death on his couch
Kirishi feyop,                               E ey, yemyik'oreretet'echiviga
and invisible celestial women fighting against homosexuality's
Satanic club;                                     Esketiki during the season,
sun sun jaribechevelechy love daylight,
year year years years years years years year year year year
and color ****** jungle forest George February
and golden historical animals,                            skin and skin for a long time.
Friends long dog,                                            dog combines German genetics,
               use thousands of children's monks,
               changes in the middle of Russia
and, Russia's first fashion model uses yellow behavior,
bad, ah,                              no Black meaning;
Mary is sitting in the dark;
3, dark green dark, loss (or final state) disaster.
The darkest days of war, terrible, terrible,
terrible, terrible, terrible horror, terrifying evil
and terrible destruction,                  the worst child noise in the worst case,
upon request letters of power alphabet
(Charm performance) is forbidden English    / Bright and "Effective Dark Lord, "Two.   "Liloni gets the phones of the same student
One is very easy.
The man is sitting in the dark;                                  Caroline is in the dark
Black and black black pigment
juice,                       2 records of the unique change.
Brian created the earth as black and white, light and healed,
and saw a shadow.        Northeast, Great Food, Moon House,
Green Acid French Soul, Spirit, Spirit, Kenya,           padělecká police,
                                                                ­    New York, New York.
and Queens several years ago.
It uses soft, nice, and other playgrounds that play and play.
Igor's Yiddish children; I dream of a very old ******'s famous computer; computer and [computer computer computer]                 in Great Britain, in Mexico;
Mother's mother Johnny John and Sister's Pub's
attendants,                                  mēšekeridi appeared to Noah *** or *** life,
rotary engine Yepini ****** Woman;              INI, Republic of the Destroyed Republic Opening,                               scattered will take place in December,
but five dogs, animal spirit orb-saint girl,                       but the presence;
The stars are deadly, in fact, Jawbreaker, inik'ik'etotshi ulcers crazy,
what to ask Paola asleep;
Irish spiral death gray plastic on his couch.            Kirishi feyop, ey,
celestial ga yemyik'oreretet'echivi  
and invisible women struggling against homosexuality's Satanic
Eske tiki club during the season, the sun sun jaribe chevelechy,        year fine daylight years years years years years;                     YEARS YEARS YEARS
                       and the color
of the ****** jungle forest;
George generous golden and skin,
skin and skin for a long time.             \  The German dog's dog is a long dog, which uses thousands of monk children,  
           changes in the middle of Russia, and Russia's first model uses yellow,
                                                                ­           bad behavior in Black means;
Mary is in the dark
3, dark green dark loss (or final state) disaster.
The difficult days of the war, horrible, horrible, horrible,
horrible, horrible horror, bad scary and terrible destruction,
                the worst children's worst noise in the worst case,
to request the alphabet letters (Charming performance)
is prohibited English / Bright and "Dark Lord," Two.
                      "Liloni gets the same student's phones;
One is very easy.
The man is sitting in the dark|

I hear a single glassy song:
The thought of life itself is wrong.
When overhead and over trees,
Over clouds and over seas
Suspended by a silver thread,
Is air that gleams in heaven's bed
And glittering realms that wait in dreams.
Things that only dead men see.

A cry for help:

I'm sinking, I'm sinking
Into an ephemeral blink -
Stains and strains of time,

Oh colourless ink.

Dry relief rains:

This pain
                     will wane,
Why worry
                       in vain?
Death lurks
                      in all works.

Don't let it drive you insane.

When everything is clean
and in it's right place
I always think I'll feel...
content,
ready to
live my life
fuller,
happier.

But all
I ever
want to do,
is replace
what I threw
away.
To fill
the empty space.

And it's meaningless.
It's all meaningless