I try to compensate with smiles so people won't find
That I cage up a monster with a mask of lies,
I make slits on my wrist so that it can fly,
Leaving me alone to bleed and cry,

Alone as I've been for  all these years,
Isolated on an island of tears
Having to fight through my darkest fears
You won't  reach out to me and nobody hears

All the screams that I make in the black of night,
I cry out in pain cuz I'm losing this fight
With myself, there's no help
For people like me
Except a bottle of pills that's supposed to treat

The symptoms of monsters we bury inside
Locked behind a mask of lies,
The pills take the monsters and leave us bone dry
With nothing...not monsters, or tears left to cry.

Ive been pondering too much lately on what it takes to live

For i've never been truly happy but I give all I can give

I'd rather sit here behind my screen and tell you it’s ok

While inside i'm crumbling and thinking that it's over or at least it will be soon

I insist upon hope for tomorrow, but I still cut my wrists

I’m a liar, a hypocritical fraud, but I hope you listen to my words and believe the part that’s true

Because death isn't the answer, at least, not for you

And while i'm struggling to find myself and trying to stay alive, the thing that gives me purpose is helping you decide

To see the hope and see the light and I watch your angel eyes

As you turn back to heaven while I stifle my desperate cries

Walking on this cruel world
One cannot be bold
Fake truths are hidden
Real lies are flaunted

Authentics are hardly  distinguished from synthetics
True ones are mingled with the sinners
Pure ones are tainted with the abominations

Masks flew from one face to the other
Hiding from one problem to the other
When will we stop?
*When will this end?

Is there a genuine,
              Me ....
        Under all these masks ????.....