the light is always there
at the end of the tunnel

you just have to
keep moving forward
and open your heart up to
the infinite forms it may take on

like that of a warm hearted human
or hidden gems that only locals know
as it shines through his sea colored eyes
and dances off of his tri-lingual tongue

and i could float through this vibration
like it was the water i breathe
and the food i need

because something about the humidity
leaves me sweating out
all of the losses i ever cried about

while the heavy heart of this island
and the fire in his eyes
reminds me of glitter filled skies
that find the sense i need
for all of the mysteries
this world begs to know

and i know i am not from here
but this place takes me home

It stifles more than stimulates,
Imprisons more than liberates,
Inhibits more than invigorates,
So why let it dominate..

Bonfire
Lit up this entire
House of ornate desire
The ceilings set afire
This hopeful spark
Turned into charred logs
Bonfire.

Bonfire
I’ve watched us
Be damp timber for too long
Till we struck the match
Shrunk to the warmth
Choking on our own confessions
Asphyxiating
In this smoky haze
It wasn’t love
Bonfire.

Bonfire
This night is already over
Our story a distant chorus
Your silhouette
Departed
With the last red
Of the Bonfire
We were a catalytic firework
Now we’re out of colours
The winds carry our ashes
Bonfire.

i’m finding
that it is ok
you know?
to let it all go
to let things be
& let yourself grow
to trust the unknown
know that you’re not alone
you’re enough on your own
*~its engraved in your bones~*

My fear was
Having all my hard work
Lost.
Destroyed.
Reversed.
Feels like I’ve been cursed
With you stuck in my head
All I do is dread
I miss you but
I hate you
I can’t seem to escape you.
I throw shade on your name
You’ve been acting so lame
Acting like you don’t love me
And what we had wasn’t real.
I get the feel
That you moved on
So I push forward too
Only sometimes to rue
Leaving you
Or loving you
Depends on my mood.
Everywhere I go
We put a stamp on it
I know everything you love
And I try to run away from it
I ran so far only to end in my starting place
So here I am
Writing about you.
Loving you
And hating you.
Can’t get away from you
Look forward to the day I do.

Look what you did to her
Look how you changed
Her perspective
Her logic and reasoning
See the effect you have on her
She's better
She's stronger
She's the weak kid no longer
You fell in love and left your mark on her
Look how good you are for her
Look how good you've been to her
See how she shines when she's with you
Just because she's next to you
Even after she broke you
You still let her stand by you
Look how strong you are
See how in love you are
You bury your pain when you're with her
Because her presence is bittersweet
It brings mixed emotions with it
You're devastated that you don't have her
You're belated that you still have her
You're happy cause she is too
Because all her dreams are coming true
She never told you but it's because of you
Because she unwillingly let go of you
But you didn't let go too
She prays everyday for you
That you'll find someone new
That will let you finally let go of her
Without actually letting go of her
Because she was never really good for you.

This is who I was
Lost in who I was meant to be
Found all I was not meant to see
In between you and me

This is who I am
Still picking up my tab
Even the one you said you'd grab
But debts are all I've ever had

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

This is where we stand
Inseparably apart
Your love pursues my racing heart
And when it stops is where we start

This is where we fall
Half way to where you are
Slipped as I start to pass the falling star
At least the ground is not as far

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

If this is all this is
I just want you to know
I know you loved me more
More than love could ever know