i very much enjoy the idea of us being one
it seems to make a lot of sense
as does the idea of you not being such a hardheaded *****

i very much like the idea of you talking to me
we could come up with quite the conversation topic
it could stir up a *** of friendship!
yes, *** the silverware, not the plant

don't you see,
what could be
if it became we

Senseless distractions running around
Grasping at thoughts lost before found
I am stuck between these obscure ideas
Wondering lately where my mind is
It seems to have just wondered off
Some would call it a daydream
But I would call myself lost

I'm infatuated
Towards the idea
Of you

I'm mesmerised
By your demeanour

Im starry eyed
Whenever you pass by

I'm breathless
When I think of you

I'm falling in love
With the image in my head
The image of perfection

I won't love you
Once I know
The real you

I'll find your flaws
I'll find you unworthy
I'll deem you 'Not The One'
I won't love you anymore

I wish I could
Fall in love
With you
And not
The idea
I wish I could


I wish I could preserve
This image in my head
Where you're breath taking
Where you're mine
Where you're perfect
Where you're alive.

we can waste our belittled minds

not so much together

but at the same time

in the same hopeless reality

- J.S.

"To the begining of the tape please
I don't like the end"
she said to me again and again.