They say you need to let things go
Forgive and forget
But that’s really hard to do
With you care for someone so deeply

You can always forgive
But deep down you know
The trust that was once there
Is gone forevermore

Try as you might
You can’t escape the thoughts
Thoughts of jealousy
Betrayal and mistrust

You hammer them shut
Deep in your subconscious
But somehow they keep surfacing
Like a shark who smells blood

You try to numb yourself
Hide the emotion in the thoughts
But that only last so long
Before eventually you snap

No matter how many times you talk
It always seems to be the same
One doesn’t care
While the other cares too much

These things can break you
Shatter your soul into pieces
Rip your heart right out of your chest
In fear of day to day events

Tread lightly with your next move
For every thought that comes up
There’s always a reason
Why they weasel on in

It could be despair
It could be happiness
Just focus on what’s around
And never assume it goes away

Travel to the loneliest
Part of my mind
So dark
That it’s hard to see the light

There lives
The hope I once cherished
The dreams I once adored
And the pain I fear
Cannot be escaped.

What is a servant without master?
Naught but a tool lacking purpose.
Pathetic and broken thing.
A shipwreck in an empty desert.
Lonely jester at a graveyard.
Drowning in a sea of own tears.
Suffocating in the plain air.
Crushed by a hungry void.
Dying hope of a little light
Flickering in a sea of darkness.