Feel the gentle roll of the deck
the splash against your fearful grin
Feel the endless expanse around you
the endless constriction within
Feel the water's pull
the need to give in
Feel it surround you
the cold against your skin
Feel the mounting pressure
the mounting calm
the beautiful dark

I’m sinking... alright
these feelings come in waves
my demons are praying that I drown
oh Eternal sea... give me strength
lift me up, God
breathe your living essence into my lungs
I will not allow them to be filled with anything but

The depths and the hold of the midnight hues of dusk
flowing into the surface of the water.
The sunken truth that lies in that shallow vastness
washes up on the shore, a trail of lingering darkness
found in the waters.

And so help me as I cannot help but become consumed
by the calling waves,
It whispers to me, it feels familiar
like home.

There is only a grim satisfaction that remains on my face
as I sink into the abyssal trap,
surrounded by all the unearthly treasures
I can only hold so much of.

And there it was, in that shallow looking emptiness
the indigo that threatened to take hold.
I was consumed by the sapphire
that corrupted my lungs.

I reach out to the surface
fading from my view
but only shades of cerulean escaped my mouth,
with no hope but only the suffocating feeling

of the deep blues.

-Kore

i have to wake up in 3 1/2 hours.
all for something id rather die than do.
most of my days are spent with nausea and fear. of what, i will never know.

how do i have so many thoughts, and yet none at all, all at once ?
how do i make it stop ?
i can’t distinguish between different thoughts and everything is starting to bleed together.

the tires are slipping and i can’t help but to long for them to finally give out.
one day they’ll completely give way.
one day it’ll all come crashing down for good.

i cant be here anymore, but i cant be there either.
nowhere feels fit.
heaven sounds nice.
but i cant be sure that im making it there.
too much has happened. ive happened.
does heaven hold places for goblins ?

i dont know what it feels like anymore.
maybe it’s a Boulder laid out across my chest.
maybe a parrot perched on my shoulder.
maybe its a dunk tank and the target was finally hit. but i cant get out. the surface is further and further away.
but the glass is still there.

Falling asleep
Remember the nightmare
That used to scare the happines away

Counting the sheep
Mind drifting to elsewhere
Can't concentrate on anything today

Drowning in deep
Trying to grasp the air
Painting of world around me going gray

You were the cement boots around
my ankles and I would sink beneath
your gaze screaming as I sank to the
                                                  bottom.

I saw the others the ones who failed
your questioning, your mind games
of unconscious action and reaction.

But with me, I screamed in laughter,
as I knew that you'd always let me
drown enough to be conscious of
                       your ever-changing needs.

We were the lime and the sand,
our words the water that would be
mixed together. We would be concrete
           metaphors of each other's needs..

And I found it slightly ***** when you
tried to metaphorically drown me in
                                       your mind.
I always learnt some depth to you the
                         longer you let me drown.

she stood before the edge of a cliff
as the earth beneath her became undone
a single white flower clung desperately to life
the angel crushed the fragile petals beneath her
with the same feet that once danced on clouds
but she was no longer in the heavens
she was on earth and the gravity of her situation
teased her naivety until she was struck with tears

she fell into the waters, of a gray stormy day
a place that surely no one, not even god, could find her
her worn wings had no intentions of flying
and she smiled, effortlessly, the way she had always done
gracefully falling in the air, even as she plunged into her demise
the small angel drowned at sea, with a heart pulled apart
by all the centuries that she attempted to love humans
and perhaps, she just wasn't meant for this world