Didn't I make you happy?
Wasn't I there for you?
Am I not right here waiting,
After the pain you put me through?

I tried hard to be like you,
I wanted so badly to make you proud,
It looks like it was all in vain,
My knees are weak, head is bowed.

Who am I going to confide in now?
Who will be there to clutch my hand?
I have never taken you for granted,
Do you get why I can't understand?

Why do bad things happen
To people who deserve good things most?
I gave you the world hidden within me,
You left me with your empty ghost.

I am sure you're doing fine by yourself
While I'm hollow, yearning for your kiss,
I may not be the perfect girl,
I know I deserve more than this.

The man of today
only wants to take.
It has become his nature
to have this
as a quick retake.

'Give me this!''Give me that!'
Ah! Stop this nonsense
O man, dear man...
take a deep breath and
think upon
your greatest desires
going on and on.

Every single person on this earth
wants and wants;
likes to deserve
irrespective of ones fonts.

Its not so very difficult
to get this on your nerves-
the only thing to remember is
"serve to deserve".

The scars on my body,
Are my own.
No one else can see,
No one else can know,
No one else can care.
The things I do to my body,
Are my ***** little
Guilty pleasures.
I can’t get enough of the rush,
I can’t get the image of my blood spilling out
I can’t get the blade to fall.
I need to feel the sting,
I need to feel the pain,
I need to feel something.
I am addicted…
To the blade on my skin,
Cutting into my skin,
Waiting for the crimson lines to appear.
I am addicted,
To the feeling of retribution.
I know I deserve it,
I deserve every cut inflicted,
Every burn I administer
I deserve all the pain I give myself.
I know I am nothing,
I know all I bring is pain,
I know no one will ever see me for who I am.
All I can do is hope,
That one day I can get help,
That one day someone will care,
That one day,
I will be in recovery.
Until that day,
All I know is
I have to keep
Cutting.

If only you had the compassion to imagine
The amount of greif you caused me
Maybe you would realize the problems
You were too blind to see

I wish you could feel the way
I did after you broke my heart
I want you to experience all stages
Of your world falling apart

But you are the type of person
Who does not know how to break
If you looked into a mirror
The reflection staring back would be fake

You are as deep as a puddle
I see right through your lies
A lost soul resides in the barren wasteland
Beyond your cold blue eyes

I hope you beg and cry for her
The same number of tears I cried for you
And I am sorry for your luck
If your heart gets torn in two

Next time you will think before
Deciding to play your game
And if you are feeling lonely
Well you know who is to blame

Karma really is a savage *****
I hope now you open your eyes and see
I did not have to get revenge
Because she got it for me

I guess it caught up to you
The sadness and heartache you swerved
Now I can finally smile and say
"You got the pain that you deserved."

She was lost
And she didn't know what she felt
Anymore, she was happy
One minute and sad the next.

She would never tell
Anyone how she felt, she
Kept everything to herself because she
Didn't want to trouble others.

She stopped looking
At the mirror because their words
"Ugly" and "fat" among others would
Ring in her ears.

She had lost so much
And gained so little. She felt
That she wasn't enough for the others
As well for herself.

She would laugh
And she would smile but
Deep down she knew the laughter
Was empty and those smiles
Were a lie.

She started tainting
Her wrists with lines of crimson red,
Hoping that it would relieve
Her of her mental pain.

She wanted to escape
Their vicious remarks and their
Constant attacks, she wanted all the
Pain to be gone.

She deserved to live
Just as much as you and I do,
But the hate and cruelty around her
Suffocated her to death.