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Cherisse May Oct 2018
instead of the late afternoon sepia,
darkness fills my window,
with bits and pieces of scattered light from outside
trying to come in this late at night.

instead of the warm oranges and reds
trying to envelope me in its embrace,
it's the black sky, littered with glittering stars
and soon, as the morning comes, blue washed skies.

instead of afternoons with friends, it's late nights
talking to myself, alone;
being alone isn't a bad thing, but I've been
so used to being alone that I've had too much time to overthink.

instead of coffee, it's milk.
I can't force myself to stay awake via caffeine;
wouldn't milk help me sleep?
but I can't sleep, and now I'm plagued with these horrible thoughts.
11:53 pm. I said I wanted to try not being depressed but it flowed out of me unconsciously, like paint, spilled.

I'm trying to not **** myself. I promise. I've been trying so hard.
Luna D Oct 2018
Its 11:20 at night

And youre gone.

Saying youre tired, i get it.

Long days are exhausting.

We know she lied

Angry at being rejected

Lying about **** that almost ruined us

I know she lied

But its 11:20 at night

And youre gone

i have this nagging feeling

Deep in my soul

A soft whisper that speaks to me

Tickling my ears,

My mind wonders what youre doing

Wandering through the wonders

This whispering nagging feeling wont go away

Watching you walk out the door

I was up in the clouds,

And yet i was still put on edge.

Nervous, worried, fearful

Now I’m up in my feelings

Its 11:25 at night

But youre at home asleep

That voice whispers again

It causes my feelings to burn in my throat

When i try to inhale and accept them

Im so high baby,

but its not the same without you.

And im so tired

But i cant sleep when youre not here.

If this is how you felt because of me

Then god i wish i could take it all back

I dont want these feelings anymore

Please god take them away

I love you so much

And i never realized just how much

Just how much i need you in my life.

It’s 11:30 at night and i need sleep

So ill end it with this,

I’m sorry for ever doubting your loyalty,

and

Thank you for caring like no one else

Has ever before
Josiah Archuleta Oct 2018
Just remember I've been there beside you
It hurts that you say this love is the last time
This one thing is getting in the way
This something is causing us to break
Tell me, how its going to end?
Theres now a line between us
Our love is at stake
Desperate I'll crawl
Waiting for it to come
I'll die for her
Because she's the one
What are we gonna become?
Julian Delia Oct 2018
My head feels like a visit to the cranioscopist’s,
Like someone bored through it with a drill.
Inflamed and ill,
Like the ego of a billionaire philanthropist.
Flashbacks of “You”,
Got me off my tracks and feeling blue,
Stumbling around in pain, without a ******* clue.

My neck is aching,
My body is shaking,
My ******* soul feels like it’s breaking.
Volcanic unrest, putting my heart to the test,
Got manic anger strapped to my chest like a suicide vest.

I’m the spectre of truth, a hard hitter,
Like that last, smooth drink that fails your liver.
A lone wolf whose claws are made of words,
A man grown bitter and whose heart hurts.

My legs feel heavy and tired –
Is it now accepted to not have energy to even exist?
For that certainly isn’t how we’re naturally hard-wired.
I don’t know how to accept the illusion,
There seems to be no solution –
I look desperately, amidst the confusion.
I look for similarly empty eyes,
For those who do see the lies.
The only truth left is this;
He who murders lives, and he who loves dies.
Ye semi-regular dose of distilled emotions.
Sueño Oct 2018
Why does inspiration hit you at night
Is it because you’re alone and feelin no light
Or are you sad and not reelin’ it in
Is she the pull,
The  trigger that’s clean and driven .
A string to a heart
Will it hurt as bad
Will this one fade
Can you show me a safe side to this blade .
(Can you show me the safe side of a blade)
That’s the ignorance asking
Blind fold chatting

Two sides to every story .
You only get one taste of glory
Opposite pole
A different attraction .

Fatal compassion
Tasteless crash
Too much
Too light
Blacked out night
April 282018
Johnson Oct 2018
ASH
To live is to die
To die is to live
What is the point of it all
If it all contradicts

Too much I have seen
And not enough I have known
Watching the atlas spin around
As this fable becomes my own

So much I have wanted for
Any yet soul less I have tried
For this motivation to live
I have yet to find

And wasted away again
As another romance blooms
Crushed under the weight
The affixed clench of this gloom

Like a sailor in the night
Searching for land
No plunder to be found upon me
So alone I must stand

No more do I ever want
To be in such state
However much this world gives
Your defiled as it slowly rapes

However ever much are you to be
All the more you are contrived
Fantasy the only escape
On a plane of exilic defile

Muffled are your breaths unto
Another catatonic night
While you patiently wait for something
Something you will never find
So this is the sound
Without you around,
How cold this corner,
I'm crying for your warmth.

How empty is the sunset
How the waters cry on the beach,
The sadness of the howling breeze,
Without you,  it turns out to be
Like this.
I can't express it really well but I am longing for someone
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