It’s almost 5 am.
I remember the weeks I stayed up this late just to talk to you.
To hear your voice, and see your smile.
Crazy how a few bad mistakes and bad timing change your world.
Regardless, today I’m not staying up for you.
I’m staying up for someone far more special.
Me.
I’m staying up to watch the night to turn to day.
To watch the blackest night, turn into my favorite shade of purple, before turning pink and yellow, and finally breaking into a blue sky.
To remind myself even my worst day is only 24 hours long, and that the night will always turn to day.
As a reminder- that I can tackle whatever is thrown my way.
All by myself.

I got some news today,
Not all bad and not all good.
Nothing resolved and nothing to be done,
But sit and wait for the other shoe,
To drop,
Sometime
After lights out.

When sadness becomes a burden

Consumed by how hard were all hurting

Eyes will let loose a flood

Body will suffer from loss of blood

Smashing things up

Because I'm not that tough

Sinking to the ground

I'll drown

Yet in the aftermath

When past has passed

I'll find peace in tears

Refreshed to see all is clear