Meet me in Japan-
meet me how the scenes inside
of your head plays out

6:11 PM
9/7/19

Write a story, she said.
You have a way with words
Write about us.

The day we met.
Under the sunset.
On the water's shores.
Overlooking the ocean.

The day I saw you over there.
We caught each other looking.
Our eyes met.
I shied away.
Giggling, as I turned my head

I looked again,
And you were almost there.
Walking up to me,
With a smile on your face.

Before any words were said,
I was already, enchanted.

H ow does love work?
A nnoying them with kisses
P ining for them
P ositive support for them
I ndependence
N agging occasionally
E verlasting
S tubborn, yet stupid, quarrels
S oothing their pain

Away from the roots of it,
far from the truth;
there you'll be.
Asking questions no one can answer.
dodging stares,
slurring, launching
slings and arrows
at your darling- your sweetheart.
Hard to believe this could be your reality,
but it twist and it turns all within the bounds.
Yet, physics will mean little to you
as the heart aches.
and the roots of it all
are out of reach now.

I'm so sorry
I never meant to hurt your feelings.
I tried and tried.
I tried to tell you so many times.

But always waiting for me was a smile.
Breakfast in bed, at the right times.
Always there, to kiss me good night.
Never faulting, ever the gentleman.

Your company, always a delight.
The host with the treats,
The guest with the gift.

You were always happy,
Always kind.
The nice guy.

I didn't want to take that away.
I didn't want to make you cry.
How do I tell you I don't love you anymore?

You remember the dates,
You always put me first.
You do everything right.

So, How do I tell you that 'perfect' isn't making me happy?
That 'Mr. Right' isn't enough for me.
It hurt every single day.
I just didn't know what to say.

I'm sorry.
I never meant for you to find out like this.
I know I messed up,
Please, forgive me!

I thought
I was blind
until I witnessed,
first hand, the
beauty in your eyes.
Now I see why
I fell for you.

You never had time for me
But you went to see him.

I called for weeks.
Hoping to see you,
Even if it was for a minute

But you said you were busy.
Had things to do.
Things that could not wait.
Things that were more important,
Than anything.

Imagine my disbelief.
When I saw you under that tree.
Holding his hand; smiling
Laughing, bearing all your teeth.
Touching his face, affectionately.
Leaning in, going for a kiss.
My God, I couldn't believe it.

I thought we had something.
I thought you said it was just me.
I thought you said I was your everything.

I'm not even mad or angry
I'm only sad,
You never looked at me.
The way you looked at him.

you found me worthy
and left me feeling worthless
when you turned away

7:28 PM
28/6/19

I thought I was over you
until I saw your smile,
a sad smile-
oh, how I wish I could
fix that smile.
I try to justify the flutter
of my heart at the
mere sight of you.
That smile on your face-
oh, how I wish it was
still for me.

I try and I try
to write the perfect haiku-
as perfect as you

11:25 PM
19/6/19