She came with her friend
wanting an introduction
but I played the clown.

BEHIND MASK OF CLOWN I LIVED,
FORGING THROUGH LIFE.

I laughed along with others
sometimes unaware
of hiding tears that festered
from feeling alone.

BEHING MASK OF CLOWN I MOVED,
TRYING TO MAKE ENDS MEET.

I longed for something more-
a connection
for understanding
my true purpose for living.

BEHIND MASK OF CLOWN I PLAYED,
ALWAYS LOOKING TO ESCAPE.

I desired to become free
from fears and insecurities
that limited inside sadness
that followed me when uncloaked.

BEHIND MASK OF CLOWN I HID
FOR 32 YEARS TIME.

Until serenity was mine
to know my true divine self
and throw mask away.

No day goes by without a mistake,
If only I'd told her, and given her my coat,
I'd be some one she can't forsake.
But the words I could not utter, were stuck in my throat

---If all people need love, then why bother with fruitless chasing?
Limited time, but wasteful hearts, for what?
For I know love is not rational, instead felt, it cannot be stopped
So waste no time and lend me a moment---

If only I'd told you then, that cold afternoon,
But love is scarcely spoken by a short-lived buffoon.