From a young age
I have been advised to recognize my 
Feelings
To know why I feel
To know what I feel

And I am grateful for this advice
Because through awareness I have found control

But now I'm too aware of how I feel
                                             To let you know

i hear your outcry
false love
needy little child
bawling crocodile tears
you want her to
love you, correction:
bow to you. she is
FREEDOM
we aren't children
don't spoonfeed
your hilarious attempts
self-harm for her benefit
no. selfish creep.
stop forcing
heartbeat measured
tastes bland as stale rice
cold: as rain washes
through my entrails.
I feel no pity.
she is not your toy
get a dog