Playing in my waistband
Fingers trickle down
Fascinated with the way the lace moves all around
Your fingers take a dip
They trickle down my back
Warranting a hiss from me, (my) facade starts to crack
The feeling that it leaves me--
With when you're away
Makes me feel the color yellow, bright as summers day
And oranges remind me
Of the way you smell
I catch a whiff and rewind to our game of show and tell
Red is the flight
That I'm catching later on
Reminds me that I'm leaving and makes your touch feel like a con
Green is my mind
When I think of who I'm with
Never with you, far away, you're feeling like a myth
Blue is the sound
Of your lips leaving mine
As they throw away the butterflies and taste like Country time
Indigo is heavy
Weighing down my thighs
I'm feeling dizzy and it's got me caught up and surprised
Violet is ending
Run around us singing 'darling..stand by me'
I clean the puddle up
I throw it in the trash
I hear it hit the metal, rainbow spills and feelings crash
The rainbow keeps on running
The colors start to muddle
I find them every morning in a technicolor puddle.
And a ring around your finger
Is a noose around my neck
My heartbeat getting quicker
Is a sin without repent
Falling forward with no regret
Waiting to hear you catch your breath
What is morality when you're on my mind
Where is reality when your mouth touches mine
Hurt me baby, one more time
To keep hydrogen peroxide of
and as many Sermons as I can
in my thoughts daily is difficult
once my conscience is stinging
but it's a relief when sin is dying.
When I'm tempted to read erotica
I use the tweezers of God's Word
and Sermons to pull at my desires
and stop weeds of sins growing.
I know God is always watching.
Yes I land at different times with
my face in the dirt but God has
promised to continue all good
works in me, I'll be persevering.
God picks me up after my falling.
Christian beliefs aren't a
our desires are
changed by God's grace.
unlocks our eyes
so we understand
how truly hideous
and this is a miracle.
This is true freedom
which stands out unique
among the disguises and
the fact that it is antique
makes it all the more
Tears drill out my broken eyes.
My lungs vacuum away songs.
Why am I so cast down I say?
Heaven seems so so far away.
Yet I will always try to pray.
I'm always in God's presence.
I know because of his word.
His spirit dwells within me.
I know his son saved me,
when I deserve hell more.
I'll yet praise him everyday.
Depression be lonely always.
Insomnia please go to sleep.
Silence is gone let peace exist.
His son saves me from sins.
He is still working on me daily.
I'll yet praise him everyday.
This is why I want to live.
Teach me to desire the things in this world less and less everyday and help me to be more humble.
God please more and more ban as much evil in my heart as possible. I know until heaven it will be impossible to be perfect but please help me to try to do better than what I've been doing.
Help me to think more and more about the eternal truths in your word everyday. I know I don't think about it enough.
Give me the grace to know what to say in my writing or poetry because sometimes I completely fail. When I do fail give me a way to rise above it.
Thank you for every blessing you've ever given me.
Sincerely in Jesus name Amen,
If you read this I hope it disappears
Don't ever get lost in medical fears.
My lymph nodes feel like wind chimes
stuck in my body for all their crimes.
My brain inside feels like meatballs
I scoop up a headache in the halls.
My lips shed almost like a little snake
as I'll sit here pretending not to bake.
My eyes are so excited to pop out
but I'm way too nocturnal to shout.
I'm sitting still just waiting for you.
Heaven will be my oyster
this world isn't my home.
If everything goes wrong
I'll try to
whisper this inside myself.
When I think this depths
do become so very shallow.
Sometimes I stare at them
but God lifts me up soon.
Eternity will be my oyster
which is only
from God's amazing grace.
I trust God will bring me to
no matter the tribulation.
To be honest heaven is so
than an oyster ever could be.