I feel like I've been looking from afar
So detached, a door left ajar.
I'm wondering what I should do
To bring myself back to you.

But coming back has its hardships too
Your heart may have stopped
Or another could then be with you
I don't know if my confidence will come through

Our minds are weary
Its time to take a break
Your heart feels heavy
Oh, how I know, it sinks.


Yet, would you still brave the wild for me?

I got so used to being with you
knowing you and memorizing your tics and the way you spoke,
I hadn't realized real time apart
would change both of us to the point that looking at you now only feels like speaking with a person I just met

I thought we were going to be best friends
For a really, really long time.
I thought that you would never leave
Especially without a warning.
And now it seems that you don’t want me
Anymore.
You don’t feel the need for me
Anymore.
I feel like a part of me has been
Ripped apart.
Apart from my body.
My heart.
I don’t know what I did
But I’m sorry.
Please come back to me.
I can’t seem to stop crying.

I can't seem to get you out of my head.
Every thought, every memory, I dread.
Why did it end up this way?
Everything that has happened is not okay.
Why can't everything go back to the way they used to be?
I miss everything we had, don't you see?
I miss talking to you day and night.
Now, I'm wondering if we're going to be alright.
How come we drifted so far apart?
Can't you see what it's doing to my heart?
I'm the only one who cries myself to sleep.
Everything about us, I wish I could keep.
But everything between us just isn't the same,
and you're the only one to blame.

I looked through a make-believe mirror today,

And saw what I have forever longed to see:

Myself in another person.



Our souls were of the same colour, and our thoughts swam at the same depth.

Our lips formed the same words and our faces shifted

the same way through conversations,

Even though I am a ship

And my reflection, the horizon.



As I am, so was my reflection cold and distant at times,

Though she was right next to me.



And I have never been good company for myself;

neither was I for her

For she was cold and I was cold

So she strayed towards warmth and

Away from herself

Towards a happiness that I could not provide.

She found it among other souls and

They made a rainbow through the night.



I found my dream and lost it too;

I see my reflection every day

But now my heart is broken.