Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
always anxious Sep 2014
little girl
your young
your skinny
you could have the world

little me
your shy
your sad
you don't know what you could be

dear myself
you were happy
you were beautifull
you should've never put that smile on the shelf
always anxious Sep 2014
little fragile creature
broken and empty
your crying again
you're so **** silly

little skinny girl
why don't you eat?
you're starving again
food is what you need

little baby me
why are you here
you should have been dead
no one would waste a tear
always anxious Sep 2014
Today is the day I have
chosen  to die,on the wings
of an ANGEL I will fly high

I feel I could have been
better while I was here,
but on the wings of an
ANGEL,I will have no fear.

All my life I had to put up
a fight,but on the wings
of an ANGEL I will be alright.

Things may have been better
if i'd taken time to pray,now
I am on the wings of an ANGEL
and I am going to be ok
always anxious Sep 2014
here we go again
sitting on my own
crying in the shower
same old sad tone

razor blade passion
calling my name
far in my thoughts
fasting my fat frame

all these words
rushing in my brain
i write them down on paper
to deal with my pain
Alexis A Sep 2014
You say she's awful
That she doesn't care
You don't know
How easy we talk
And converse about my life
Her name is Ana,
She's no demon
She's my friend,
And she cares more about me
Than anyone ever will
She tells me the truth
No matter how much it hurts
People lie to me,
She refuses to stoop that low
She helps make me perfect
Beautiful
Happy
Smart
Lovable
Worth something
And so much more
If it wasn't for her
I'd still be
Lying in bed
Blabbing on the phone
Or spending all day with people
She taught me who they were
That people weren't what they seemed
That no-one really cared
No-one but her
I would rebel,
Thinking I could handle life
Without her help
I quickly came back
Realizing I was wrong
She took me back in,
And punished me
For ******* up
Saying it was for my own good
She tells me when I lack hope
And when I'm being a ***
What I need to do
To get the guy across the room
To look in my direction
And how to grab
Some masculine attention
To you,
She seems like a *****
But you don't know her like I do
She's really rather nice
So, I have a friend who thinks Ana is a *****, and I wrote this to her (and I will probably never show it to her) on why she isn't
Raquel Butler Sep 2014
Don't be fooled by my ability to resist,
I might have never gave into the monster,
but I always gave it a dance.
Alexis A Sep 2014
I tried to drown myself
Just last night
I ran away from
My own intervention
You followed me into the unknown
Not knowing what I was planning
I begged you to leave me be
As I climbed into a riviene
You chased me down
Connecting the dots
You pulled me up
As my head went under
Screaming at me
To just choose life
I pulled away
You pinned me down
Telling me
This isn't the only way
I banged my head
Off of a rock
Hoping to break something
Of major importance
I found a sharp rock
And tried to cut open my wrist
You kept my hands apart
Again I tried
To get water in my lungs
Screaming that I had to die
You begged me to stay
As you started to cry
But I'm not sure
That I was all there
Something else happened
Things that I can't recall
You said Ana
Had taken full control
You could tell by looking at me
My face
My words
My actions
They weren't mine
But hers
Finally I came out
Only because I was
Far too weak
To keep up my fight
I still want to die
And maybe I will soon
But I won't tell anyone
About what happened last night
It all just sounds
To much like a nightmare
This is a true poem, and also very emotional. I wonder how much longer I can survive like this. I'm alive, but not living. It hurts me to move, because there was rocks digging into my body, and I was fighting against them.
Alexis A Sep 2014
I was told she's a demon
But she's my best friend
And I never want her to go

I kept getting asked
If I was ready to release her
I asked if I could go to the bathroom by myself
I was told no, and said
There's your answer

I love her
Even if I'm the only one
I hope she stays
With me forever
Because I can't do anything without her
I love her, even if no-one else does, and even if everyone else thinks I'm crazy.
always anxious Sep 2014
she's proud og herself but she won't tell you why
it has now been a month since last she even tried
but they voices won't stop today she still won
she put down her razor and put down that gun

after hours of thinking to herself
she goes and picks up her old friend from the shelf
overwhelmed with emotions she picks up her blades
and disposes her devils, drops the charade

for the first time in a while her lips crack to a smile
this wont be easy but in the end it will be worthwhile
her cuts will turn to scars and those scars will fade
and this makes her feel stronger she's no longer afraid
always anxious Sep 2014
A broken mirror
A bleeding fist
A silverblade
Against a wrist
Tears falling down
To lips unkissed
Ignore her
and she wont exist
Shes not the kind
Youll come to miss
Next page