im a lot like kurt cobain
when i am done writing something that seemed beautiful as i formed it
i begin to really depsise it
i am a lot like kurt cobain
overly humble, a bit too sensual
i am a lot like kurt cobain
i speak loudly but i talk slowly
i am a lot like kurt cobain
i am mild, and peaceful
i am a lot like kurt cobain
i dont have a gun

N64 Flow

Controllers Rattling
Mario Battling Bowser
Solar Traveling
Star Foxin for hours

Toy Boxes, Trinkets, and World watches

Sipping Soda fizzing
Eating crunchy Frito Snippets
Watching ***** Wonka
wishing I had a golden ticket

Scraped knees, Bicycle Tracking
Wilds woods equal childhood
Blueberry & cheery picking

Kisses from a girl who was
older are still vivid
No witnesses were present, but presents were still given

In the form of innocence
It's was nothing but child play
Assorted memories
Become a part of my current day

Who's to say that I've changed?

As I reminisce, my past was forged of oddities, deceptions of tall tales and everyday Odyssey's

Pictures of wild women, explicit *******,
Disney diluted story's and fictional prophecies

Depictions that lacked religion
Late night Toonami dreams

Insights from other youth
that didn't make sense logically

Visits to the water fountain periodically

Teacher said there's no such thing as dumb questions

but they never answered honestly

Everything I've learned from life
I've already learned from Monopoly

I'm always landing on GO,
therefore I'm moving with the green

House rules obviously

You can interpret that as currency
in our current state physically

But I just see it as a
constant stream of positivity

To create is a state that is channeled by electricity

Childhood memories is my youths ticket for authenticity

Those days were full of fun and madness

This excitement couldn't have been replicated by a smartphone nor tablet

Sunshine & green grass actual outdoor access

Inhale curiosity, exhale the astonishing

Running at full speed, gunning at high velocity

The excitement was never ending
a continuous lottery

Summer books I would never read

Instead, I drew in the summer breeze

Illustrations of disfigured stick figure's and murderous scenes

I realize that I have no idea, who I'm destined to be
I don't know where my next travels will lead

I am but nomad upon a land with no wagon or steed

**** these contraptions for my actions speak louder then screens

An N64 and one controller is all I need

I will never forget the first time we look at each other,
Even if it's not in the eyes, but I knew it was love. It feels like it's love.
I will never forget the way you make me fall into the deepest sea,
Even if you just do the stupid things, but it feels like it's love.
I will never forget the sound of your creepy laughs and swear words, most people harassed you, but I feel it love.

I will never forget how the sun shines for you, make that smile looks brighter then the sun itself.
I will never forgethow the heat of the sun strikes down your face and make you sweaty and it's hotter than hell.
I will never forget the rain slams on your pomaded hair, make you didn'r wanna go so far away for the streets that we used to pass.

And I will never forget how crazy I've fallen in love with you,
Anything you do, no matter how may problems you've made, all the words that slips from your mouth,
It's such a beautiful things that I've ever learned.

I just can't thank to every single objects that makes you look extremely perf,
The pale of your fingertips, the crooked teeth, and a cringe smile.
I will never forget,
How I sink into your deepest dame, 'til I sink into your love I crave.

- dlx

I still got that feelings through my head everytime I hear your name,
I still got those butterflies in my stomach everytime I saw you in my screen,
I still got my ****** little laugh in my chin when I passed you through,
I still got that feelings, i still have it all.
Even though I tell 'em I've moved on but why this feeling still stuck up in my brain,
They don't move at all.
I feel like this feelings are meant to be destined in my body,
Is a gift from God, is my destiny and it'll never change I guess,
Even a million times I tried to erase or forget it,
But still,
That feelings always strikes back against me, in the end.

- dlx

This things would drive me crazy
Cause outside there's no feelings darlin'
You say it's hard to tell
What I've been thinking lately
Cause behind closed doors I'm a fool for your love

When your photos appeared on my feed, and found you in the school's hallway, or even heard your name
It turns me anything
I just suddenly thinking about what I've been through
I feel like,
How long should I continue to wait?
How long should I have to wait?
How long should I hide this feelings?
Not to tell you, tell anyone, and tell my brain to stop thinking about you

"Say it and **** it up or hide it and let it **** yourself instead."
The best quote ever.
But I just can't do that. Just can't.
But in the mean time, I also already **** it up
It's not that tiring when waiting but it feels exhausting.
I feel like I'm too youbg for this game.
For this ****.
But what should I do?
Say what I feel and **** it up?
Well, I've been thinking that idea lately
Stuck up in a complicated feelings
I don't know what should I choose
Say it and **** it up or hide it and let that **** **** yourself.

Exhausting.

- dlx

I miss you
I don't know why
But true, I just do.
We don't even know each other
We don't even know anything about us
We even still ask each other questions about who we are
We didn't even talk to each other, looked at, or meet
But somehow you are always there whenever I need you
You might not ever present now, to held me like what others think about us.
But someday, maybe it could happen
But now is now, tomorrow is tomorrow, and then let it be a distant memory.
What I feel this may be hard to guess by anyone, like they know everything about love, they thought they're pro
But when they found out about this, whether they still remain as a pro?
It seems big no.
Because this feeling is indeed hard to understand, even you, or me.
No one understands,
Until it makes me like this.


- dlx

Whenever you feel tired,
Just breath.
Whenever you need a hugs but you can't get one,
Just breath.
Whenever you feel give up,
Just breathe.
Whenever you wanted to lose yourself,
Just breath.
Whenever you get upset or mad,
Just breath
Whenever you think that you've already gave your best but you failed,
Just breathe.
Whenever you feel unsave,
Just breathe.
Whenever you need someone to talk to but people are just *****,
Just breath.

Don't drive your heart, baby.
Just don't.
Give yourself a little space,
A little break,
And a rest.
Your mind, heart, and mental can sick too.
Take care of them just like the cells keep you healthy everyday even every beat of your heart.
Breath.

Just breath yourself in.

- dlx

I haven't meet him. Not yet.
But I found him.

Right when I feel like I'm gonna feel something in a different ways.
Not like I used to.
But it's a new things to me.
I feel like I'm being used.
Being slaved.
And being controlled.
By you.
Not directly, but slowly.
It's killing me sometimes, even so many times.
But I don't know why,
Here I'm still alive and I still want you.
There are no words to describe my feelings to you.
I think that's no enough for me to get into your universe.
It seems like I giving a try,
But then you showed up whenever I try to **** this feelings.
I feel like I'm burning, inside and out
And even myself, don't know how to deal with it
Couldn't find a way to shutting down the fire
It's raging on me over and over again
The flame of love.

Yet.
I'm still haven't met you.
But I think I've found my way back.
To you.
Always. To you.


- dlx

Sometimes,
What we got it's not upon of what we want
What we hope for, isn't upon from what we granted
I need you
I want you
It's has always been you
And it will always be you.
But I got nothing from you here
Instead of someone that wants me as I want you
Fine
It's all in God's hand
The results, the harvest, and the finals
Is all not upon what we pray,
It's called fate.  
I don't force my will to always leads to you
I don't push my dreams to directs to you
Or else,
I don't require you as my end-up forever partner
But if it's NOT you,
This feeling will never change.
Never ever change.
And it'll lasts forever and ever.

- dlx