I just want to be my own perfect
not you, or anyone else
I don't want to look like her
and I don't need to be with him

I just want to wake up in the morning
every morning

and see myself without a blemish.
myself through God's eyes
how magnificant

I saw a twinkle in the Sky
    it wasn't a star i see anymore
the clouds creeping far above
    i heard the plane say
"i'll hold your wish with love"

the comfort of a familiar body
is all I desire as I retire
so lonely
everywhere seems to me
blank walls covered with magazine pages
new sheets, beside new faces
no satifaction
longing for passion
times that are never lost
I blinked twice, this too shall pass
all your left with is matches
madness
an old cell phone
with old voicemails
and long heartfelt messages
that never got deleted

cells work from knowin
your words be devotion
hope you're feeling if you're jokin
the hells unspoken
are felt in each motion
giving all you in connotation
while reaching your plan spread open
remember too well
you are your favorited treasured notion
until we are all proper emotion

i’m so hurt.

every cell of my body

screaming

come back.

but i keep crying

so **** that.

it’s fate that things are over

and it will take some time

give me a couple

thousand years

and I will be just fine.

Ugh
I fall in love
With everyone
And I mean EVERYONE
My heart can
Only hold so much.
Can only beat
So many be
Ats at a time
Fast slow
It doesn't matter
It's both
Keep up
I will
We
W ill
V ie
I love you
I may not
Know you
But I do
And I know
You could
Love
Me
2
1
0
.

Maybe I'm not trying to protect myself
huh, ever think of that?
Maybe I just don't want it.
not right now.
I've had enough.
why can't that be just okay?
Without anyone trying to interfere with that.
I'm sorry I can't be the one
to make you believe in fairy tales
or the movies you watch on TV
I'm just not that girl

The Clouds as Rolling Hillsides
the Sky turns into Sea
I wonder if the vague illusions
are looking up at me
counting every Airplane
every inch the smoke trails in mind
as i move across the Ocean
leaving my days behind
forgetting how large the World is
from up here it's easy to suggest
that Anything and Everything is not
just a dream.
for a man once thought a Jet.

what you eat
your plants, your meat
become you
become me
we are we
we are the trees
and our tears
like our water
descendants of our fathers
i wonder if they had foreseen
the way society now breathes
holding their breath
because we are told our air is toxic
when will we learn
it's the way in which we now live
we must burn

I sit alone
never alone
thinking of what I've done

the things created
                  creatures
forsaken
i have forsaken you
i will to find you
          i will find you

Everyone just waiting
Quietly, reserved.
Waiting for the loud speaker—
To speak, finally.
Music from behind you,
The cafe calling your name.
But no answer, I wait still.
Under a light, I feel the shadows
Anxious to take flight, I feel the shadows
Heels tapping
People laughing
More minds than I would ever know
The waiting.
the flight.

I laugh at the way things used to be
and shed a tear for the times forgotten.
suppressing the most beautiful moments
so that they may be born again
undamaged by the emotions
already attached to this piece of my past

information
informotion
flowing potions
b a d or g o o d
know your notion
cease the commotion
be you and your devotion
one like the waves in the ocean

I am by no means a poet

but I want to make your ears scream songs

expressing the feelings in which they long

to hear what i find real.

i am not anything but spirit

living within this body

praying for the day i play

in a field with flowers tall and strong

until i fall

into the ground

grasping the dirt with my bare hands

smiling at the moon

while he smiles back

i forget to breath sometimes

possible? yes.

but only for a moment

never too long,

just enough for me to realize

what my body should do

unconsciously

perhaps it serves me

a friendly reminder

of what i need to remember,

of all i need to remember.

love is not all we need
what is love
love is defined
but love - love is
where do you need it
how do you need it
love shut mouth doesn't speak loud enough
we need scream
we need shout

Lines
Not lies
I would never
Be anything but
True
To you

I can't seem to shake this.
This feeling--- get out.
Only one more day,
one more day and it will be okay.
Say it everyday
work then play.
Days to weeks, weeks to a month. two. three.
and as I look, I see change.
It has occurred.
It's different now.
but that feeling,
oh, that feeling.

walking down the line
she takes it off, one piece at a time
just to deluge the mind
of a stranger, he sits.
taking a sip, he stares.
she smiles, just a bit.
he has a twirl, she has a tip.

Tell me how to save you
   this time
      is time
time
binds

from day one people were greedy
evil was needy
all wasn't seeing - being
oneness is leaving now and waking up to the sound from the ground
if love can move mountains
search for the fountain
let yourself allowing to see the truth
everyone's bowing
on their knees praying
work isn't paying
it's not cutting it but it's cutting you
cut it out
let your diagram change to greater
it's the option in this unfunction
when we all sit here frontin'
to the creators
the baby makers
risk takers
may the leaders of blessing have it easy like resting
no testing, let us be de-stressing
talk about the number one killers
talk about the thrillers
the billers

Using us as a filtering system
Our bodies
The stuff too toxic
For Mother Earth
They feed to us
From supermarket shelves
We store it up
And break it down
But it too breaks us down

Our bodies ultimately fighting a war
Started much outside

Oursel f ves

Trying to save
The Planet

Each individually

We fight to rid our bodies of the

     To x ic  ma t ter
So we can move change evolve
And get to

the root cause
   Of this evil
To save our families
Our communities
And hopefully see it is
and is
and is

creation of the past
the feelings we wished had last
how to bring again
the plan of plans
the yay of gain
a single grain
     ~grows~
inch by inch
avoid the pinch
the punch
the lunch
we have been plant
planted again
fed to Man
the plan of plans

I know what you wish- that this love wasn't worth the risk.
painful memories of shattered hearts and broken relations
stalk your soul and whisper words of doubt into your open ears.
you do your best to ignore them,
walking away and praying for them to leave the past and join you in the now-
happiness. contentment. understanding.
that 's all in the now, it is the now, and you, you on the deepest level of your soul
you know this.
and the certainty of this idea, it's oozing from your pores.
filling the air- sufficating!
not in a way that is hurtful or uncomfortable, no.
but as a womb. safe and secure. beautiful.

pleased and eased
by alighment
refinement
of the word
the soul
the world
unfolding
make emotions flowing
to all your knowing
now spine growing
keep you rowing
pain unspoken if crooked crunched or broken