It's 2am and I miss you.
All I wanna do is kiss you.
And I'm lying in bed, with you in my head,
And I'm wishing that you were next to me,
So we could keep each other company,
Warm each other with our chemistry,
Create electric friction when our bodies meet.

i have an immense urge to help
a relentless need to give
an incurable desire to heal
and a undying will to love

you can't stop me
i can't even stop me
please somebody stop me

so many people walking around
with skeletons in their closets
too afraid to share their stories
of being used
of being broken
of their innocence being stolen
in fear of rejection
in fear that they will become
those horrific moments
that they will be reduce to
or defined by
the moment that in their eyes
ruined them
that moment they feel
they were forever changed

so many people walking around
with skeletons in their closets
and all us
have our wicked addictions
to anything that takes away our pain
the pain of living
in such a twisted,
misunderstood world
all of us **** drunk
on the idea
that we can distract ourselves
with shiny things
and hide ourselves
in huge houses
and that these things
will make others love and accept us
because god knows we cant do that ourselves

& god knows that the dark spaces
in the backs of our minds
are filled will enough shame
and disappointment
in ourselves & in others
and in this thing called life
that if we don't constantly
feed ourselves with ***,
and spending
and drugs
it will take over all the space in our minds
& eat us alive

we look for someone, anyone
who will validate us
in the way we so desperately need
someone to say
you are beautiful
and worth all the love i can give
because we just can't say it that ourselves
and we find ourselves
so dependent on people
to give us our worth and value
we become so dependent
so needy, its becomes toxic
and somebody ends up suffocating

our life becomes a series
of crash and burn stories
of rising in love elation
and drug addiction
and then falling at their mercy
falling into their despair
but we use it all
just as bad as we were used
it gives us a reason
to not face our demons
to not clean our closets
to not face our fears
but as time goes on i wonder
which would be easier
to be continuously tangoing
with other peoples demons
or to finally just go home
and face my own.

where's the stimulation
is this life a simulation
we're all lacking inspiration
& we're feeling the deflation
cause we fight the integration
of our slowly rotting nations
working for our next vacation
losing passion for creation

I think the moment I met you
Time stopped
I forgot how to think
How to breathe
How to move
All I could feel
Was you
And your presence
And the way you looked
And the way you sounded
And the way you moved
& It was all I could do
To hold myself back
From also seeing how you taste
I think the moment I met you
My heart beat full speed
I forgot where I was
Where I'd been
Where I was going
All that I knew
Is where I had to be
Closer to you
And your smile
And your energy
And your world
& It was all I could do
To hold myself back
From asking you to be apart of it
To be the start of it
And the middle
And the end
Cause I could not settle for friends
I need to hear, to see, to feel, to know
How far and this could go
& Whatever els I was doing can wait
Cause it seem i have a date with fate.

sometimes i feel down,
sometimes i feel blue.
when times like that come,
i just sit and think of you.
you are like the sun,
shining down on me.
you make it easy,
to be so happy.

we never did care,
about what they say.
so why start now,
let's quit the work & play.
the earth is my oyster,
and your my pearl,
let's stop wasting time,
and go explore the world.

don't go anywhere,
you know how much i care.
we can see the world,
hand in hand, i'm your girl.
don't you wanna see it all,
the pyramids, and the great wall,
laughing, singing dancing, grinning,
we make a good team.

i'll watch your back,
& you'll watch mine.
nothing will stop us,
we'll leave our doubts behind.
we'll face all our fears,
will beat them with love.
we'll swim with the sharks,
we'll fly with the doves.

we'll smile at the strangers,
we'll smile at the sky,
we smile at the darkness,
we smile at the light.
we're finally where,
we wanted to be.
nothing to hold us back,
you & i are free.

& we'll go anywhere,
if there's danger we don't care,
we're gonna see the world,
hand in hand, yah i'm your girl.
we stand so proud & tall,
at the pyramids, and the great wall,
laughing, singing dancing, grinning,
we make a good team.

50 years have come and gone,
and here we are.
sitting in our rocking chairs,
playin some cards.
i make you cookies,
& you make me tea,
still happy to be with you,
living in a tree.

we talk of the things we've seen,
& all we've learned.
we were right there moving,
with the world as it turned.
i have no fears now,
i have no regrets.
we lived the good life,
we we're the best.

we went everywhere,
& i hope you know that i still care,
ya we saw the world,
hand in hand, & 'im still your girl.
we got to see it all,
the pyramids, the great big wall,
laughing, singing, dancing, grinning,
we'll always be a team.

Keep shining your light.
Hold tight, stay bright.
And keep the love alive.

can someone please come here to me
crawl in my bed tonight
i can't stand this ugly lonesomeness
for one more sleepless night
i tried to drink my cares away
i numbed myself to ease the pain
i traded in a try hard man
for a bottle of whiskey
and a new set of plans
but nothing i do feels right yet
and i guess this is just what i get
for not knowin where i'm goin
but still showin and still growin
& i'll be living life quite recklessly
until my graceful death it seems

Sometimes heartache can make us feel the most alive.

It is painfully beautiful.

To know we can hurt so bad, feel so much, fall so hard and still stand up. 

To feel like your pain can move mountains, erupt volcanoes, and start raging hurricanes of passion and tears within you. 

To care so much about something or someone that you can’t eat or sleep or even breathe when they’re gone.
I think to truly feel the great depths of our love is to feel it when it is absent or lost.

To feel the hollow emptiness it leaves behind.

To stare into an abyss of all that we miss.

There is nothing more raw, more real, more humanizing then the sadness of feeling alone.

And that sadness has it’s own kind of beauty.

A hunting kind of beauty.

oh how fast we fall
in and out
of each other's hearts
like a fire
waiting to start
first it sparks
then it spreads
from your heart
to your head
into your room
and then your bed
and it just spreads
all over the place
envelopes you in
& makes no haste...
but in one quick gust
out goes the flame
and just like that
the winds of change
turn tender love
to blatant pain
just swoops on in
and changes game
it's almost enough
to drive you insane
cause then you are left
standing in the dark
standing in the wreckage
of your burnt shattered heart
that once had a beat
of deep love conviction
but now looks like the site
of a quick demolition
and compared to the future
that you planned in your head
what you though would be bright
is now withered and dead

all i can do
is write about you
how you make me think
how you make me feel
about this world
about myself
about love
all i can do is write
and silently pine
hoping that we cross paths
hoping that we brush skins
and hoping that the marching band
that is my heart
cannot be seen
through this transparent flesh
cannot be heard
over my nervous laughter & words
i must curb my enthusiasm
restrain my my heart
subdue my urges
before i find myself
where i always find myself
spinning out of control
into passionate madness
losing all sense of myself
that isn't drenched in love
recklessly whirl-winding
until i am so far gone
so high up
that i can only see stars
that i can only hear birds
and boy do i live for those feels
i would give anything
to feel something real
something good
something pure
like a new born, or a new home, or a new love.
to feel new again,
to feel me again.

but the thing is.....
when you always hang out in the clouds
what goes up must always comes down
one moment i can see all the world
through rosy love blind eyes
the next moment i am plummeting
right out of the sky
and i hit the ground so hard
i eat the ******* dirt
and hell does it hurt
more then anything ever did
over and over again
and the impact like a meteor
that once shot through the sky
in such magnificent beauty
that people would make wishes as it passed by
left such a massive whole
in the earth
& in my heart
a hole so deep that it would be forever called art
and i am left at the bottom of it
in the darkness of it
waiting for a pair of eyes to see me
waiting for a pair of hands to need me,
to reach me, and pull me back out
of my self-inflicted ruins & heartache
to remind me of how good it feels
to love & be loved again
& sometimes it tempting to stay
in the predictability
and assured stability
of my deep dark hole
but how do you say no
to such sparkling eyes
to such a warm smile
how could you say no
when the hands of love
want to lift you up
i have never been able

they call it falling in love
but that's never really the case
you see falling is what you do
when the love starts to leaves you
you fall from high to low
your pulse falls
your tears fall
your eye lids fall
your heart falls
from your chest to your stomach
where it then turns into a piece of heavy dark coal
that just weighs you down wherever you go
everything you built together falls
but at least then
you are then put in a position
to make yourself better
because with enough pain & pressure
that coal that is now your heart
has the potential to become a diamond
but it really should be called soaring in love
or sky rocketing in love
or floating in love
because that's how it really feels
just always give yourself time to heal
time to shine or unwind
until you feel fine
or the next time you'll be soaring
with damaged goods

yes all i can do is wait
and write
and sit & pine
hoping that we cross paths
hoping that we brush skins
hoping to be born again
& with each time i fail,
it hurts a little bit more
but i know there's still people
who are worth falling for

all i have now
are cold sheets
& a half empty bed
with half empty tea mugs
littering the floor
like land mines
surrounding my mattress
that now feels more like
a life raft
then anything els
a life raft that i jumped into
to espcape the war zone
that had now become my life
this matress
is the only thing keeping me
from drowning into my sadness
from falling into the madness

all i have now
are the cries of dogs
late at night
are the cries of my heart
late at night
like the saddest song
you've ever heard
because they don't understand
why the love was lost
how can you loose something
that was once everything
and they try to out cry one another
until they are both too exhuasted
to do anything but sleep

all i have now
are the the painful memories
and broken dreams
of everything we use to be
to remind me of how quickly we fell
how blindly we flew
and how badly we failed
all i have are songs
that i can never play again
because visions of you
will play in my head
and i'll need to drink enough liqour
too drown it all out
hand me that whiskey
i need to pass out
now how many times
will i take this foolish leap
before i finally get tired
of the blood on my teeth

you can't blind the eyes
of my inner child
my heart will stay wild
no matter how many broken hearts
and broken bones
this mean world throws at me
because i got the love in me
that has the power
to change this world
if only i knew how to share it right
but i get caught up in romance
and the heat of the night
and it takes up all the love in me
cause then i give all exclusively
and all i am doing is limiting
my capacity for experience
and all i am doing is limiting
my capacity for love
by only sharing it with one

the end nears
another year
souls catch fire
and give light
to new solutions
and resolutions
for new ways
and better days

Sometimes as I lay awake at night & I wonder to myself...
Will this life ever be enough for me.
I mean for a poet like me.
Who needs a constant flow of inspiration, experience, & beauty in life.
Who craves a life that is just so good it hurts.
Who brews constant whirlwinds of passion & romance to get wrapped up in.
I'm a chain feeler
I'm a chain lover
And I could show you a life & a love like no other.

i await that sweet rush
of passion, blood, & heart beats.
the friction of our flesh,
creating a seductive,
secluding warmth
for us to get lost in.

i await that sweet escape
from the pain of living
and lack of living.
the taste of your soul
on my lips.
breathing you in
through every part of me.

i await the sweet sound of home,
the symphony our senses play.
dancing with you,
romancing with you,
as the whole world falls away.

is it bad
that i search for the scent
you leave behind
for long after you're gone
that sweet smell
of something wonderful
you leave behind
that lingers in my mind

is it bad
that i long to hear
the sound of your voice
in my ear drums
like the sweetest noise
to ever grace ones ears
the soundtrack to my slumbers
the hum in my hymns

is it bad
that i crave your taste
even tho
i haven't yet tasted you
& even tho
you will probably give me
the worst toothache
i've ever had

is it bad
that i tremble for your touch
that i shake and ache
with every pore
needing more
more self-control
but less air & space
between our bodies
and the heat they make

is it bad
that i fantasize
about your beautiful eyes
lust locked with mine
our limbs intertwined
about sharing one heart
and sharing one mind
or just sharing time

is it bad
that i blush
when we touch
that i forget where i am
whenever i am with you
that i forget where i once was
and where i am going too
because all i feel is you

is it good to be bad?
if it is, then i'm glad
because these feelings i hide
are all that i have

if you wanna see more love in the world,
be love.
if you wanna see more compassion in the world,
be compassion.
if you wanna see more kindness in the world,
be kindness.
if you wanna see more mindfulness in the world,
be mindful.

be the change you want so see in the world

i read you words a hundred times
i still can't shake them from my mind
they'll haunt me till the day i die
blind-sighted by empty goodbyes

I want to burn my feelings alive
They are turning me
Into who I never we wanted to be
I hate that I love you
That I lust you
At all times
In every way
And there's nothing I can do or say
To erase or change
The things that happened between us
It's torture
Pure torture
Worse then
The agony
In your plea
When you begged me
To stay
For just one more day
And take away the pain
Of knowing we will never be the way
We thought we'd be
And that eventually we'd have to let go
We'd have to say no
And turn away
Forever changed by each others ways

I wish my words could flow as freely and easily as my wine does.
for I long to know how to show myself to you
when your standing in front of me
in all your glory light
and everything feels so bright
and my face starts to ache from smiling
to cover up that i'm dying
to be with you
for just a night, or two, or three..
possibly indefinitely?
would that be too much to ask?
am i being to brash?
how this happened so fast.
let's make it last.

you can never be sure,
of what the future holds.
you can only be sure,
of this moment now.
as people grow and change,
so do their feelings,
and their wants,
and their needs.
there are no guaranties.
forever,
is actually just for now.
so enjoy what you have,
while you have it.
enjoy your love.
reap the gains.
and when it dies,
embrace the change.
release your pains,
and try again.
your only loosing a body.
the memories,
the lessons,
the experience,
will always remain.
forever ingrained...

black cannot show without white
wrong cannot live without right
dark cannot come without light
love cannot live without pain
loss cannot come without gain
sun cannot shine without rain

yang would be lost without yin
for everything bad has good within

With each passing day it gets harder to be away from you.
I cannot stop thinking about you it's crazy.
When I walk I imagine you with me.
When I lay in bed I imagine you with me.
When I cook breakfast I imagine you with me.
Your always with me now.
The thought or you creates a constant flow of smiles, happiness, inspiration, & energy in me & in my life.
Every set of blue eyes I see, I see you.
Every smile that I see, I see you.
Every time I hear the word love or see people in love or hear laughter, I think of you.
You are so wonderful.
You energize me like no other.
I feel high, I feel unstoppable, I feel like in right where I am suppose to be, completely aligned with destiny and Gaia's plans for me.
I cannot wait until you are physically in my life!
Ive just been gettin these waves of euphoria that sweep over me all the time especially when I think about you.
I want to make you so very very happy : )
I'm going try my hardest to give you the beautiful love that you deserve & the love you always wanted to have.
I feel like no matter what happens to me in the future if I had you then I'd always be happy and have something to look forward to.
I feel like no matter what I do, or we do, I could never really loose or fail at because being with you is like winning the best prize of life lol
always winning, always grinning!
everything we've given is coming back to us now.
all the love & inspiration & wisdom & kindness, it's all coming back to us, in the form of eachother : )
this is only goin to get better & deeper & stronger & more awesome.
I can't wait to get to know you more and on other levels.

i'll be your rock,
you can count on me.
you just hafta ask,
and say what you need.
watever works best,
is what works for me.
if it causes less stress,
then I'm all for it, please.
things may see dim,
but I'm hopin to see,
a chance in our fate,
so eventually,
we can all coexist,
so harmoniously,
but we'll never get there,
no we just won't succeed,
until we drop all the hate
and start making peace.
there's no time to waste,
we're chasing our dreams.
until then I wait,
to see true unity,
but just know through the chaos,
that you can always count on me.

Crimson *****
You aren't of this world
With your purity and goodness
Backed with the passion & heart of a warrior
A warrior that dances to battle
That's dances to the sweet nothings that love whispers
That knows all the words to your favorite song
To our song
To the song of you
The one my ears we're formed to hear
& There you are
Illuminated
By the suns rays
Spotlighted
In the most beautiful of ways
& I can see all the colours of nature
Playing off your face
All the colours of beauty, in you
And I want to be painted by all of it
By all of you
So let's paint this whole town red
With glory and love
And they can all wake up to a city
Marked by a crimson *****
Touched by the hands of graceful passion
Of somebody who was burnt before
But bares no fear to be burned once more
Not when in the name of love
In the name of all things good
And real
And her
She would stand there flaming
And dancing still
Like the most tragically beautiful
Yet inspiring reckless thing you've ever seen
Lighting the way for me
For us all
I move closer
I need to feel her heat
I need to jump inside her fire
And let everything els just burn away
Until we are left there naked
No hands to hold
Just soul in soul
With everything anyone ever wanted
Realizing that you must let go of everything
In order to gain it all
& Now nothing can stop your flight of freedom
No flesh or bones
Could hold these spirits now

Dead Love

please let this pass.
please make this fast.
i don't know how long i can last.
i'm done with blame.
i'm done with pain.
of feeling lame.
it's all a same.
they're all the same.
playin these games.
they'll never change.
so please refrain.
oh what a shame.
i've gone insane.
to **** the pain.
of friendship slain.
of love now tamed.
never again to be obtained.

So alive.
So infinite.
So free.
She sees the beauty, the love, the chaos, the mystery of life.
She sees it clearly
& she reflects it in herself.
She is the beauty, the love, the chaos, the mystery of life.
She sees the earth for all its worth and she reflects that in herself.
She is a divine creator.
She ten folds everything she touches.
She was made from love.
She was made to love.
She is a vast & ever-changing sea of emotions, thoughts, & energies.
She has the universe inside of her.
She has the earth all ways to guide her.
She is golden.
She is light.
She is all.
She is I.

It hurts to know
That one day
You will leave me
And much sooner
Then is fair
And much sooner
Then either of us
Could ever want

I want to be
In my golden years
With my best friend
To have you in my life
Until the cold, quiet, end
But alas I cannot
Because time cannot stop

It seems like a cruel thing
To do to your heart
To get into these kinda relationships
With inevitable heartache at the end
But I've never learned so much
About patience, compassion, loyalty
Or laughed so hard
Then I have with you

I would do it all again
It just hurts to know
That you won't be there for it all
That one day
Our time together will be up
And I'll have to feel the pain
Of watching you leave this earth

I can't picture life without you
But one day I'm gonna have to
One day all your kisses will be gone
And there will be nobody
To warm my spot in bed
And nobody
To greet me in the morning
Or protect me in the night
And that just ain't right
No that just ain't right

what you choose to think and believe influences how you view the world amd how your reality is shaped.
you are, and everything els is, exactly what you make it to be.
if you believe the earth to be a beautiful place filled with love and opportunity, that that is how it shall be.
if you believe you are divine & strong, then that you will be, and vise versa.
we choose the path that our souls take .
if you believe in nothing, then nothing will happen.
if you believe in reincarnation, then that is what will happen to you.
if you believe in the stars, then you will go there.
it's all up to you my beautiful co-creators!
where you go, how you feel, how you precieve things, & how things effect you.
you choose, and you create it all.
and if you truly believe in something, you will manifest it into truth, and into reality.
hold no doubts about yourself, about your potential, and your powers.
fill your heart and mind, with love and dream BIG.

DREAM IS DESTINY

everything is starting to fall apart but simultaneously all fall together and in place.
change is swift these days,
& energies are running super high,
& time is still speeding up.
truth and realizations are flooding everyone now.
breakups and makeups you'd never thought you'd see are happening everywhere.
everything's fallin into place, whether we see or understand that place or not, it's happening against our control.
are we leading up to something?
are we all taking our final places on this stage we call life, to live out the final act, the end scene?
to embark upon a whole new story/play.
something much greater then we can know & see is happening right now.
& what's happening is outta our hands at this point, so buckle in everyone and embrace the unknown!
I think 2015 is gonna be one hell of a freakin year.
enlightenment is here.

Feeling the breath of life.
Feeling the flight of spirit.
Positivity flows.
Manifesting magic.
Birthing angel wings.
I hear the soul.
I hear the stars.
Tranquility washes over me.
Beauty surrounds me.
This peace of mine.
This peace of mind.
It's so divine.

Intuition knows.
Consciousness grows.
Creativity flows.

an experience,
be it good or bad,
teaches us something.
makes us feel something.
something real.
and that's why we are all here isn't it?
to experience feelings & emotions.
to experience life.
you are not here to feel good or bad,
you are here just to feel.
you are here not to be good are bad,
you are here to just be.
don't you see?
there is no happy or sad,
there is only feeling.
there is no right and wrong,
there is only being.
your existence is a miracle, a blessing, a gift.
this is your chance, your life, your experience.
you can be whoever you want to be.
and you can see however you want to see.
you are everything you think and more.
be grateful & give thanks that you are here,
right now, in this beautiful, potential filled moment.
you are apart of something bigger then you ever could imagine.
bigger than you, than us, than this world , than this galaxy, and this universe.
you are a universe of infinite potential and possibilities.
you are an unstoppable force of love,
you were made by love, for love, to love.
your here to feel, to heal, and keep it real.
& once you realize this, nothing can stop you.

**** me with your feelings
caress me with your care
fashion me with kisses
then undress me with your stare
wrap me up
inside your soul
I'll start a fire
so you won't get cold
& I won't ever tire
of having you to hold
you made me feel like a diamond
when I thought I was coal

when we share time
it moves fast and slow
and fast and slow
at the same time
when our hearts beat
they drum fast and slow
and fast and slow
at the same time
when our lips breathe
they speak fast and slow
and fast and slow
at the same time
when our hands meet
they feel fast & slow
and fast and slow
at the same time
when we make love
we fall fast and slow
and fast and slow
at the same time
when our souls become one
they dance fast and slow
and fast and slow
at the same time

both these roads are grassy green,
but which is for the taking?
after all the pain i've seen,
i can't do much more breaking.
it's hard being a daisy,
you don't know who to trust.
just because your lovely,
doesn't mean you won't be plucked.

i am in seventh heaven
on cloud nine
walking on air
in transports of delight

i am happy as a clam
having a whale of a time
buzzing with excitement
and stoked on life

i am on top of the world
and over the moon
tickled pink
and walking on sunshine

i am in raptures
just beside myself
jumping for joy
having the time of my life

i am so elated
blissed out
thrilled
and happy
ecstatic
euphoric
gleeful
and sappy

over joyed
and delighted
and slightly misguided
but these are the feelings
that you have ignited

I want to be free,
like a bird in a tree,
just free to be me,
so infinitely.

I want to fly,
with no worries or ties,
just me & the sky,
so high, so alive.

**** this
**** that
**** her
**** him
i just can't believe
i'm back here again
watching you leave
without a trace
swallowing tears
rollin down my sad face
**** this
**** that
**** her
**** him
i can't believe
i fell for it again
the charm and the lies
it was all a disguise
i feel like a joke
when i once was a prize
**** this
**** that
**** him
**** her
this is not the love
i know i deserve
i just feel like the worst
and i can't understand
why's it so fucken hard
to find a real man
**** this
**** that
**** him
**** her
do you take pride
in the ones that you hurt
do you feel high
when others feel low
when your being a ****
and ******* your hoes
**** this
**** that
*******
**** me
how can i be so blind
and unable to see
the truth of it all
that's it's not meant to be
i miss all the signs
of hazardous chemistry
**** this
**** that
**** me
*******
i know you'll get
what's coming to you
cause karma's a *****
and she's working for me
so we'll see who's left last
you just wait and see

let’s explore the universe of love
.
like galactic butterflies
,
we soar, we link
,
we dance, we sync
.
lost in cosmic euphoria,

induced by the warming glow of starlights
,
& the undeniable feeling of being home
.
we marvel in the light
,
like sunbathing crystals
,
casting rainbows threw space
.
our beauty is endless & moving
.

we are so divine
,
& now we are free.

free to love, to dream,
to create, & to play.

we breathe in prana
 & we feel peace.
we bask in the essence of love & oneness
.
we let it fuel us 
& fill us up
.
look at us
, we are so high now
,
we are the sky now.
there is no going back
,
but we never would
,
cause the truth has never felt so good.

we were made for this
.
we were made for bliss
.
we are the fruits of this universal tree,
i was always you
 & you always were me
.
now we are infinite.

now we are home
.
now we are alive.

oh tender heart
,
oh fragile mind
,
your soul is free 
& so is mine

I want to be born again
I want to remember what it's like
to feel something new
to experience something
for the first time again
endlessly I search
for that feeling
in other places
and fresh faces
but nothing I do
births the feeling of newness
I want to feel my face catch fire
with blushings from sweet nothings
whispered in my ears
I want to feel the beat of my heart
so loud and hard
that I'm afraid it will burst through my chest
into someone else's hands
I want to feel a love so fresh
it feels true & limitless
as I gaze into its beauty & potential
I want my feelings to rush forth
like the flood gates after a hurricane
to rush forth
like the Spartans army
on the brink of the battle field
to rush forth
like a forest fire of untamable desire
sweeping everything els in its wake
all the pain
the questions
the strife
that comes with life
swept up in the fire
in the magic
in the moment
of feeling something new

a pale & gloomy day,
laced in loneliness.
motivation..... lacking.
inspiration..... slacking.
as sad as the clouds,
raining down on my parade.

This is the glory light
When sore eyes land your sight
And I can see what's ahead
I'll picture you in my bed
With your clothes on the floor
For I want nothing more
Nothing less then your grace
And that smile on your face
When it wakes in the shine
Of the sweet morning time
& I can see in your eyes
That I'm yours and your mine

I am embracing my inner goddess.
I am recognizing, channeling, & swimming in divine female energy.
And I shall let my love shine forth & envelope those around me.

You show me your glory light,
And I'll show you my glory love.

sometimes it's so hard to wake up,
leave your dreams, to a scene where you want to throw up.
you try to ignore all the grim and the grime,
you work, and you waste, & you rush & loose time.

sometimes it's hard to be happy,
when your boss is a **** , & your salaries ******.
and you get no time to rewind or slow down,
there are bills you should pay, but you wanna leave town.

sometimes it's hard to breathe,
all the hate and the lies, it's so hard to conceive.
doesn't anyone care there are children who cry,
they need food, they need love, but we sit as they die.

sometimes it's hard to feel sane,
when spend your whole day doing things that you hate.
you cheat, & you lie, & you steal, & you cuss,
you question & judge, you don't know how to trust.

i don't know what is real..
every time i wake up, it just feels so surreal.
what am i looking to find..
just a little peace of mind,
i'm in search of the sublime.

sometimes it's hard to let go,
of the things that you love, of the love that you know.
when you get torn apart, when your down on your knees,
its so hard to find hope, to find joy, to find peace

sometimes it's hard to ignore,
all the pain, & the death, & the hate in the world.
you turn on your tv, and its all the you see,
you wish you could help, but you cant so you weep.

sometimes its hard to feel safe,
when you sitting at home and then soldiers invade.
or your trying to fight for your right to be free,
but the cops throw you down, cause they're running the streets.

sometimes it's hard to escape,
when you got no money, and you got no plane.
so you try to do drugs, so you don't have to deal,
with the fact that your trapped, and don't know how to feel.

i don't know what is real...
every time i wake up, it just feels so surreal.
what am i looking to find...
just a little peace of mind,
i'm in search of the sublime.

my heart deflates
at just the taste
of bitter hate
it comes in haste
and leaves no trace
of joy or faith
upon a face
I can't relate
to such a fate
to make a date
in karmas grace

there are corners in my mind in which you hide,
and you'll creep out at the most inconvenient times.
there are days when all i think about is you,
the way you smile & do the little things you do.
i can't shake you,
wanna break you,
but i'd take you back in case you….
change you mind….
wait never mind..
you were never mine.

am i headed where i need to be?
so much feelings of uncertainty..
i just don't want to get hurt you see,
all these feelings bursting forth from me.
but how do i know?
if this is where i should go?
should i take it real slow..
or just go with the flow.
maybe i should let it be,
and just wait to see..
cause if it were up to me (preferably),
i'd like to avoid catastrophe.
but my heart's beating too fast for me,
to hear the words it has to speak.
so here i go, into the unknown,
looking for the one, to call my own.

i want you
all of you
right now
& for the rest of our days
i want you in so many ways

when i'm with you
life is but a dream
i live for the moments i share with you
to bask in your love,
and bathe you in mine

hey brown eyes,
why don't you hop inside
and we can take a ride
to where the dreamers jive.

to weird to live, too rare to die.