I remember what it felt like the first time we touched
our fingertips brushing against one another
in that type of way where it was meant to seem like an accident
but we both knew it wasn't
My whole body filled with warmth and pure bliss
just at the touch of your hand
but then something changed
As i watched the fountain spray water in every direction
all i wanted was to jump in
to extinguish the burning
that your hand caused on my skin

I knew a boy, who was beautiful in every way
But never felt that way
He always offered to take the smaller half
Not because he wanted less
but because he knew he wasn't good enough
to have more

It's not about you
Or that I love you
Or that I even like you
Because I don't

You fill a space
In my heart
That's not so easily occupied

And for now,
That will do

Even if I Don't Love You

There is an artist
hiding deep with in me
she can sing and dance and write and draw
she can create anything

But sadly
she is trapped deep inside

so then the confused me
tries to dance but always falls
tries to sing but always fails
tries to create but only crumbles

because I have now realized that
I am an artist trapped in a body that isn't capable  
of creating art

Eyes are the window to the soul
But you already know that

Everyone said don't look
a murderer in the eyes
unless you want to see
the devil inside

But i was a curious little girl
when no one was looking
except for him, my eyes couldn't help
but wander toward his

When i saw his eyes i had to silence my gasp
not because i saw the devil
but because i saw myself
his eyes only mirrored mine

Maybe it wasn't the presence of something
but the lack anything that led him to become the murderer

every word they speak
leaves an impression
on her heart

every idea explained
leaves an unspeakable expression
on her face

every whisper with her name
leaves a tear
on her cheek

they will never understand
what they are capable of,
how much they can hurt her

how they can make her feel
like she has no one
like she is worthless

how they can make her feel
like she is ugly
like she is dumb

I deserve someone
someone beautiful, inside and out
someone caring, toward me and others
someone loving, in all senses of the word
someone i care about to

You don't deserve someone
someone like me

Is there more to life
more than just the everyday muck
waking up and plastering a smile on my face
more than going to school everyday
just to graduate and go back again
so that I can get a job
so that I can get married and have kids
and raise them to do the same **** thing
are there not any options?
is this my only choice?
because it sure seems like it

If you had 3 wishes
would you spend them all on yourself
wishing them away on love and wealth
or would you stop and think

maybe I can change the world

would you choose to be a good dancer?
or would you cure cancer?

would you want to be younger?
or end world hunger?

would a sign with your name say: Featuring?
or would you end world suffering?

Maybe it's my fault
but
Maybe it's not

Maybe I care too much
but
Maybe you don't care enough

Maybe I trust too much
but
Maybe I don't trust enough

What she saw in him was
eyes brighter than the stars
a smile longer than any river
love bigger than the earth
and all the cliches in the world

But all he saw in her was
a pitiful little girl

She's treated like a princess
and I the troll
But they've got it all wrong
the evil she possesses is beyond compare
and once it's realized
they will beg
and beg
but I will say no
because she will give them
the hell they all deserve

A butterfly kiss like a smile in the wind

The heat in the room is smoldering
sweat beads on my forehead
and the fan can't keep up with the rising heat of summer
Her arms are still covered though
and i start to wonder
Who hurt her so bad?
So bad that tears weren't enough
that only a blade could make her feel
Human again
So bad that the pain couldn't all be held in one place
So bad that the scars on the inside had to reveal themselves
to the outside worls

We are all lost
Wandering through the maze of life
No compass to guide us
Only our thoughts to accompany us

We are all scared of the monsters
The noises in the dark
But we never ask other for help
Even though they might know the way out

We wander for years
Maybe even our whole lives
Getting deeper and deeper into the maze
Most never find the way out

I stand in the back of the crowd
looking around
is anyone really here
or am i seeing shadows
because surely these people aren't real
With their smiling faces
in the midst of a war
With diamonds and pearls
hanging from their necks
in a time where money is rare
They must be shadows
I can promise you they aren't real

The stars and the moon light my way
but you asked about those hazy days,
when you look up and there's nothing but darkness
Well those days have caught me in the most dreaded loneliness
Those are the days that hurt everywhere
The days that I can't bare to walk without each step feeling like a loss
those are the days I miss having someone