I didn't even know
I was feeling all alone
This heaviness of fear
That you weren't even near
Should have struck me
I knew I should have said goodbye
But we kept on striding by
Knowing there's no future
In you by my side

I kept trying
Thinking that together
You and I could make it better
But we can't make out something out of nothing
I gave you my entire world
While you slammed me out of yours
This was never going to be something more than just a passing

When conversations die
The whispers in the skies
Tell me you're not really by my side
A kiss I once adored
Became empty and so cold
I didn't shed a tear
Once it all became so clear

I kept trying
Thinking that together
You and I could make it better
But we can't make out something out of nothing
I gave you my entire world
While you slammed me out of yours
This was never going to be something more than just a passing

When we finally said goodbye
There was pain across the night
But sensed relieve across the skies
Another failure to endure
Yet I'll make it through once more
At least we're both not secretly unhappy

I knew I lost you
When your behaviors different
As your calls became infrequent
I became indifferent to you
The words you uttered to me
Felt empty, the love you claimed
Felt forced and pained

I don't know why we keep playing...
These game of lies
I'm trying to figure out
Why we still stay...
Is it the promises we made?
I'd rather you walk away.

I knew I had lost you
When you distanced away
When you once told me "we're better off friends"
Then you came running
Talking about working things out with me
When I should have known
There's nothing to work on
*** the love you claim is empty
A mere fantasy you want to play out

I don't know why we keep playing...
This fantasy of love
I'm trying to figure out
Why I still stay...
I don't want to force you to the promises we made
I'd rather we just walk away

You are my smile
You are my bliss
You are the reason for which I live
I chase you down
I seek you out
Of you...I could never get enough

I crave that moment
I can no longer seize
Expecting fruits
From these demons in me
You once gave me courage
Where now, I'm fueled by fear
You feed on my hunger
The hunger to feel you in me

You are my sorrow
You are my pain
You are my scars
I stare at in a daze
You are my calling
You fueled my cries
You bring that rush
From head to spine
Down to my toes
Right through my core
I no longer have control

I crave that moment
I can no longer seize
Expecting fruits
From these demons in me
You once gave me courage
Where now, I'm fueled by fear
You feed on my hunger
The hunger to feel you in me

I love you
I hate you
There's such a thin line
You are the struggle I go through
Everyday and Every night

To have loved you
There was many reasons why...
But it's hard to believe
That you only get one love in life...
So much is missing
From this brokenhearted man
Its been said that time heals
Yet it hasn't begun to start to patch

Even though that life has broke it
The heart refuses to believe its time to fold it
Even though I keep on trying to free it and mold it...
The time we had has left its stitches to hold it

For every moment
though some so pointless...
With all the problems
And all the cries
I still spend all my days and nights...
With the very thought of you in mind
Trying to rip the stitches you have left inside

Even though that life has broke it
The heart refuses to believe its time to fold it
Even though I keep on trying to free it and mold it...
The time we had has left its stitches to hold it

Here I fear
What fears bring me
I Find a way
A way to be
Wasted time
That gods gave me
Lived a lie
The lie killed me

Reflections found my mortality
Deceptions made my insanity
I've been cheated out of morality
Forsaken
Mistaken
My Serenity Taken


Pray for the way
But the smoke fogs the day
Thunderstorms showering pain
Draining into my veins
Feeling it's heat rush
Flush through my face
Waiting for the silence to break
Fear and resistance
Are all that's left

Reflections found my mortality
Deceptions made my insanity
I've been cheated out of morality
Forsaken
Mistaken
My Serenity Taken

I’ve been staring at a mirror for sometime
Seeing something so distorted
I didn’t realize what it was
It was myself
This reflection’s black
I lost my pride
How can I get it back?
When I’m black inside

Haunting demons taking over my life
Lost all faith I’m powerless to take it back…
How can I feel?
More than hate in myself
How can it be?
That I lost what’s in me
I’m black inside…

Every morning I feel empty
The voices cry
Drive me crazy, but there’s plenty to deal inside
Here is the time that slowly passes by
Here I am now ignoring all the signs
I’m black inside
Cried inside….
I’m Dead inside…

Haunting demons taking over my life
Lost all faith I’m powerless to take it back…
How can I feel?
More than hate in myself
How can it be?
That I lost what’s in me
I’m black inside…

I lay in bed
Remembering the day
My gut churns and my chest aches
My tears roll in, putting me ocean deep
Tasting the salts of the waters that came from me

Love is a war
That I’d rather not fight
A bloodless battle
With a shattered heart
A single person
To damage my life
Broken in two like a fool
I’ve lost…

The days run long
The nights are hopeless
Writing songs so that one day
You know the pain you caused
Lost and resigned
I drink until I no longer fight it

Love is a war
That I would rather not fight
A bloodless battle
With a shattered heart
A single person
To damage my life
Broken in two like a fool
I’ve lost….

The loss of passion
The ache of pain
So much’s been lost
So little gained
need an improvement
I want to be sane
Away from these memories
That cant be erased

My spirit is wounded
My hope has been lost
The smile I once had
forever gone
Tears on my pillow
Scars on my skin
The loss of the innocence
I once had within

I cry to the heavens
And beg to the gods
To give back a little of me
Of what I was once
The strength inside me
The love I had then
beauty and confidence
Of my innocent days

My spirit is wounded
My hope has been lost
The smile I once had
forever gone
Tears on my pillow
Scars on my skin
The loss of the innocence
I once had within

To my faithful muses
To the bitter sea
To the wisdom of the moonlight
That shines upon me
You give me the courage
You bring me peace
From now to eternity
I pray I'll keep
To the whispering winds
And the rays from the sun
To the glitters of the stars
When I look up above
You give me the strength
The courage
The drive
To find love within myself

My Intentions are fearless
My believes are strong
I sit here now, without a doubt
Prices of liberties
From my own chains
Were heavy and difficult to try and gain
Without sorrow or pitty
Without a second thought
I release myself from my burden and lust
You no longer control me
Not an emotion or thought
I now have forgotten your slightest touch
Good bye to you
My once every breath
Good bye to you
My heart and my ache.
In these words
I will find peace
In these words
I will be released

This life has never been
what I  expected
And I will never see
my own reflection
And even though I've know
This lie I live is old
Its far too late
To break from these chains

Even with this pain
that I've kept inside
Between the here and now
In between the time
There's a void that cries
By these lies that blind
There its set engraved
That it's far too late
To break from these chains

This life will cease to be
Much as expected
Because you'll never see
My true reflection
And even though I'm scorned
That which you'll never know
That It's far too late
To break from these chains

Even with this pain
that I've kept inside
Between the here and now
In between the time
There's a void that cries
By these lies that blind

There its set engraved
That it's far too late
To break from these chains

This life has never been...
As I expected
I never meant to be...
so self deceptive
And now  its far too late...
To break this chain
This lie is too old...
It's me that I mourn....

Even with this pain
that I've kept inside
Between the here and now
In between the time
There's a void that cries
By these lies that blind

There its set engraved
That it's far too late
To break from these chains

If it's a question of confession
I don't know how to drive
I don't know about life
I do know, that I can't survive
Without you by my side
If it's question about love.
for you i'd give my sight
for you i'd give my light
In the darkest nights you'd shine bright

Because you, my love
You're the strength behind my faith
The smile that's planted on my face
The reason why I live again
Because of you, sweet love
I learn that I could love again
I hate to say farewell to it
Because of you...

If it's a question of confession
Im the best of all cynics
I'm a complicated mess
Without you nothing's simple
If it's a question about love
For you i'd give up my voice
For you i'd give this soul
I'd even give up my ego...
On your gloomy days
i'd blow the clouds away
So you smile everyday  

Because you, my love
You're the strength behind my faith
The smile that's planted on my face
The reason why I live again
Because of you, sweet love
I learn that I could love again
I hate to say farewell to it
Because you wont...
Give up your fear and pain
Because of you...