i can't do this charade anymore
the pushing and pulling
never knowing which way to turn
thinking i'm right then turning out wrong

i don't know how to act anymore
how am i supposed to feel about you,
you drop hints but
all i do is misread them

i don't know what to say anymore
we never talked that much
but now it seems like we don't talk at all,
when we do we aren't alone

so tell me what to do
because
all i know is that i can't love you again

there is a shimmering veil
separating reality from fantasy
some choose to pretend it's not there
living out their days in a facade
i guess it's because they are afraid
that once that veil is dropped
nothing will seem right
everything that was once shiny and bright
is dull and disappointing  
reality is a hard pill to swallow
but at least it's real

everybody wants to be perfect
but do they understand what that means
it means without flaws
perfect in every way
people don't realize that you can't be perfect
no matter how hard you try
something will always be wrong
because you have imperfections
don't they say to love someone you have to love their flaws too?
but once you see their mistakes that's all that you can see
you focus on the bad instead of the good
even though it takes a while we come around and realize
that
imperfections are perfections

no
it's such an easy word
you say it without any thought
but do we ever think about the meaning behind it
no, we don't

one little word
answers so many questions
you have a choice of what you want to say
but the word no always comes into play

one little word
that has so much power
when deciding between yes or no
the answer is what you decide

one little word
that can cause so much pain and hurting
never knowing the damage it's done

so much can happen because of
one little word
no.

to be or not to be
that's how it all started
walking on a thin wire
deciding one way or the other
everything hangs in the balance
for those precious moments
before picking which side to take,
you take the leap
plunging through the air
for what seems like eternity,
wondering,
if you made the right choice
but there is no turning back
no way to undone what's already been done
all because of your decision
when everything
hung in the balance

worthless
it's what i feel
it radiates through my bones
i wish it would go away
and just when i start to get back up
i am pushed down once again
i cringe when i hear those cruel words
but i swallow my tears
and put on a brave face for everyone to see
so they won't see what i feel
worthless