I'm the queen on my bed,
I have my supple throne.
My pillow and my worn blanket,
Everythings so soft and fluffy.
Why do I ever bother to get up?

I've watched you grow so strong
             To see you break isn't real at all
I've watched you build bridges with all you had
                     With love, kindness and sincerity
             To watch you sacrifice all
In love and devotion is a sight to behold
                     You are beautiful and lovely to bits
         I pray the best for you always and forever
I hope others learn from you
                  Your love and patience is remarkable
             Your hope and believe contagious
I pray you get everything you ever wanted
                                Aameen.

I wanna hear you knock at my door
I'll let you in I promise
Just say the magic words and step through
Trust me and let yourself go
Tell me what you feel
Tell me your ambitions
Tell me anything and everything
Pour your heart out to me
And I will listen to every word of it
And I will never judge I promise
Hold on to me I have nothing else to offer.
I have nowhere else to be
Trust me and let go.

I feel like I cannot feel again
   The depth is gone The edge is gone
           I'm emotionless and stoic
   I'm static and white noise
              I donot feel anymore
     I'm dangerously numb,
All I do feel is anger burning holes in my skull
         So full of words begging to be let out.
   I'm so lost in my nest of decisions
       I regret my flight and my freedom
    I regret everything I did n didn't do
             These feelings are for me
    And shall consume me
           Till there are only bones and ashes
        But I don't want to regret anymore

My words are light
my head lighter but my heart's weight heavier
  Far ago waiting for the deed
       Beyond the castle doors
Funny how it's sunny at the moment.
    The doors open to all suggestions                                                      
Good, bad , worst you name it
     I've been left looking beyond  My castle door for the face      
      That will crease to be mine    
He'll walk head high and chin up
     to the bride in white with roses in her hair    
To the bride he'll call his own forever
   I've been left at the alter before
This time I choose to walk away

The flight with you was out of this world
I wouldn't want to live in again
The following information isn't relevent
But I think I owe you an explanation              
Every second of every minute of every day was a mistake
I wouldn't accuse you for wasting my time
You made me want a wildlife
Free of charge ready for your collection
Except I wasn't ready to go yet or ready to leave yet
I will not ask you to wait and set me free
I will not ask you to stand by my side as my friend
I will not ask you to come find me
I'll look into the mirror and fade away      
I'll ask you to forgive me and move on
Because I'm never gonna come back

We shall learn to fly
And leap of the mountain cliff
" Let's hop in together" you say
We'd dive in a deep blue ocean
Waves crashing through the roof
Overwhelming our emotions
Perils to the minds treasure
And shout till we lose our voice
Wash out from the cage and hold to freedom
Wash out the soot of our past And born a new
Like the phoenix being reborn From its own flame
Be like a rockstar no one has ever seen
Singing the ballads of glory
Screaming for love,justice and faith
Swinging the crowds around
Getting high on our adrenaline
Jumping high and crashing down to the ground
Setting the world on fire
The fault is in me and its in you.
Mortal beings we might be
But we could live forever

What if I were to **** myself
Not out of love lost ,
Not out of a broken heart,
Not out of lost hope or misplaced faith
But out of the fact that I didn't want to live anymore
What if I were smiling for so long my lips feels like they will never be normal
Should I crease my heart and let my lips fall into place ?
What if behind all the concealer my skin is still broken and confused
What if underneath my sleeves there are lines left behind by filed nails ?
If suicide wasn't in your book of survival is fleeing away acceptable ?
How is that in anyway different ?
Easier to say but hard to perform.
For I'm so distraught now I don't wanna live anymore
What if the deed is done and you find the bottle half empty
Will u ever forgive me ?
Will you put flowers on my grave every new year.
Wishing I was there to see the pretty fireworks my eyes couldn't see anymore.
Would you ever buy a white dress and know I wouldn't ever see you wear it or wear one no more ?
Or would you diminish my face forever?
Shove my memories in a shoe box disposed of in the bottom closet ?
Would you hate me for it?
Will you give my choice a definition ?
Too cowardly not to go on
Too scared to fall
Too sick of being afraid
So let me ask you again
Will you ever forgive me ?

If you are ever feeling low
Like you will never rise at all
Take a pen and draw a pair of wings on your wrist
And make a vow that it will never bring you down ever again
If you are ever feelings like you won't ever fit in
Remember that it's alright to follow the road less travelled by
Better have traveled and suffered and it's been all worth it
If you ever feel inferior
Take a pen and draw a tuft of veins on your wrists
And remember that we are all just blood and veins
Nothing under the sun have been ordinary of late
Strive to be extraordinary and accept your imperfect perfections