Oh have mercy
Have mercy on me please.
This deep incision youve made on my heart it bleeds
Uncontrollably bleeding
Have mercy please!
Im on my knees pleading!
You sick son of a b*tch!
Leave!
Leave!

Loving witness of my demise.
Crucial moment for you to see.
This crushes the feelings that make us cry.
Wish these people would just let me be.
I Unitntentionally push away the ones that mean good.
Ruin the relationships with a liftime of devotion.
Hopelessly thinking of what I could.
Lost sensation feelings and emotion.
This drug it burns it destorys lives.
Seeped into my inner soul and ruined.
Cut through me like the sharpest of knives.
The end in the distance is looming.
Please help build the strength to conquer.
My last chance to make amends.
Must keep pushing or im a goner.
Hear me god I need your help amen.

Twisting Turning im all tangeled up.
Hands tied mouth taped thrown and locked in a car trunk.
Crash.
I'm momentarily stunned.
Water fills its dark and cold.
I am drowning but i do not care.
Been here already...
sinking..
sinking...
sunk.
Forget everything everything i thought i knew.
Its all fake and so are you.
**** the world
**** the people.
Were so different so far from equal.
Gasp Gasp..
Im out of air.
The Water fills my lungs
Who fckng cares.
Will i be remembered.
Will you ever repeat my name.
Resting
Rotting
Rotted
At the bottom of this lake.
Forget
Forgetting
Forgotten.
No one will ever remember this day.

Sometimes I wonder
What life is all about
You think to yourself
What's the difference between everything I know I feel
I keep walking to the distance
Until I reach an empty place
Still without an answer
Still without a conclusion
Finally I have met my match
The answer has been with me all along......
There is no answer
Sweet and slow dissolution
It's so beautiful
The emptiness and questions
Is what keeps us going
There is no ending
It's so fascination to watch
And horrifying discovering the truth

I started from scratch
Building up a self masterpiece
Before you know it I faced an epic collapse
Overpowered, everything was destroyed for me
Laid in silence for over a year
My room was empty besides a ****** mattress
Literally slept all day and night face covered in tears
Lost when I thought I had this
I couldn't do it
I told myself
Ready to end it
I told myself
Couldn't even look in a mirror
Couldn't have conversations
Besides with the voices in my head
Give up
The voices said
Only thing to look forward
Is to be dead
BOOM
I momentarily snapped out of it
It hit me
Seriously **** this feeling
Fight back
Realized I was in a coffin with a slight pulse
Scratched through my nails being ripped out
My hands bloodied
A last ditched effort
Dug through the soil
As the light glared through
I was buried alive
But never again
I finally appreciated the sun

Its funny how sometimes life can just take you away.
Like the ocean crashing waves.
Like the roads that have been paved.
Searching for the love that youve always craved.
Praying that one day you can be saved.
Can you save me?
Please I sometimes think Im crazy.
But I swear, I swear I saw you in my dreams baby.
You were so elegant.
The way that you danced.
The way you moved and twirled.
You spun me shook me
In a way I never have before
Together... together we danced around the world.
But why can I only see you when my eyes are at rest?
It kills me drains me, did I fail gods test?
Im crying out for help I need to reach you.
Here is my hand As I take a leap of faith.
will you please catch me?
Falling.
Falling deeper.
Please catch me..?
Its so dark
Im so scared
Im all alone..
Where are you?
Please save me
please save me
please save me...........
Then like an exploding star!
A supernova you shined so bright.
You grasped my hand and you saved my life.
Oh girl from my dreams did you hear my cries??
These are tears of joy that now flow from my eyes.
Its so amazing to finally meet you.
Your so much more beautiful then I ever knew.
I love you so much and can never do enough to thank you.