Tears flow like a tsunami a tidal wave.
So powerful im wreaking havoc upon myself and others.
Destroying my awarness Im ill.
Flooding tears drown as they cascade.
  
Spinning twisting thoughts like a tornado.
Going crazy cant concentrate.
Wrecking my day to day life.
My Identity... Im finding it soo difficult to know...
  
Sweeping through like a hurricane.
Lifting me off of my feet.
Rain down with devastation.
Hurting an endless amount of names..
  
Seems this sickness is spreading like wildfire.
Burning through the innocent.
Why must this continue to happen.
Why must this madness continue to transpire.
  
Suddenly I explode like a volcanic eruption.
Realizing that this is all truly my fault.
Must put a stop to this.
Ceasing the contiuation of my destruction.
  
Dry eyes Im numb determined to put an end to this drought.
Heaven please rain down on me.
With help from god family and friends..
We can Move on move foward constantly committ to this route.
  
We can rebuild.
Dedicated to all the innocence that has been killed.
We will rise again with strength commitment and will

Cataclysmic events that unravel in my head.
Still trying to distinquish if im living or I'm dead.
Why must I be so paranoid.
Sometimes I think id be better off an android.
A robot programmed not to think.
Its that im so stubborn so insanely adamant.
Im hoping to one day wake up and come to my senses.
Tear down the walls of all my emotional defenses.
Break through these shackles that have held me down.
No longer lost for I will be found.
Gracious lights that shine from above.
Penetrate my darkness and engulf me with love.
Im ready to live and im prepared to die.
Im a baby bird jumping from my nest and dared to fly.
The fortress that imprisoned me..
The one that ive been desperately trying to flea.
Im finally ready...
Finally ready to be free...

Cascading tears fall from my face.
Love has come and abruptly been erased.
So quickly you swept me off me feet.
And the same goes for how you discarded me.
What the fck I thought I meant something.
Told myself you were an angel without wings.
You burned my fortress that took so long to build.
Destroyed my home and crushed my will.
Love is such a masive risk.
****** cold touch and poisoned kiss.
Creation of my darkest dreams.
I wish you'd just fckng leave.
Youve scarred me enough to scare away.
I will never forget your evil waysssss.
Thanks alot you evil witch.
You ******* my life you fckng btch.

Why create me?
Do you love me or hate me.
Whats the purpose?
I feel fckng worthless.
Why so serious?
This addiction has me feeling delirious.
Im at the end
Cant comprehend
I'm a fake
I pretend to be a man
Just a phony
Faux
Spec of dust
Grain of sand.
But yet....
I understand.

Close eyes, deep breath
Sweaty palms, expanded chest
Racing thoughts, desperate to move on  
Rugged past that is contiuously touched upon  
You see im stuck
I feel so trapped
I can see the beauty in the distance
Need to chase it before I miss it  
Happiness is one more step foward
However, we all continue to take two more steps backwards  
Lets run with this feeling to explore
Run for the idea that there's something more
Forget your baggage
Drop that suitcase of bad memories
Explore the beauty  
Escape the quicksand
The more you struggle the more you sink
Its sad that its even difficult for us to think
Think clearly so cloudy
Ourrrr visionss aaarrrreee soo clllooudyy
yuor lllossinnggnn cotnrolll  
DONT LET IT TAKE YOU
You can make it be strong  
You need to run before your forever gone  
Run with this and fight
The more you think its wrong the more you'll understand its right  
Chase the stars you analyze at night
They are beautiful and so are you
Your beauty is defined by what you do
Helping yourself is where it all begins  
Remember the phrase "I love me"
As this message of hope goes on forever...

All the dreams I've had have never come true.
The blood in my heart had always been blue.
Who I am and my aspirations I never knew.
Of this all changed when I met you.
My wrongs never became right.
I saw no colors only black and white.
I always had trouble falling asleep at night.
But this all changed when you entered my life.
When oppurtunities arose I would swing and miss. Ive never experienced the feeling of bliss.
Happiness wasnt a part of me I could only wish.
Baby this changed when we shared our first kiss.
Had no sense of direction no sense of time.
So very much oblivious, numb and blind.
Black heart.
Black soul.
Empty mind.
Everything changed when you became mine.
Love enters my heart.
Joy fills my mind.
Beauty beholds my eyes.
Faith holds my hand.
Darkness has turned to light.
You are the best thing I could ever ask for in life .