I want to runaway at times
Escape to a happy place
Be where , I feel loved
Be where , I feel at peace
At times , I question it all
At times , I feel no hope
That really rips me apart
Hope is all , I ever had
Hope made me keep living
Hope made me feel strong
So here , I am feeling hopeless
Thought , I would have found
it by now that which makes me
whole
I have some
but the struggle contines
The up hills
The going gets good
then drops another rock
to crawl over
knocking me back 6 feet
How can it continue
One can only be pushed
so far
One can only feel hopeless
then the struggle becomes
too real
So ...
I want to runaway
I am questioning it all

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/31/2020

Do you ever think its all gotta
end
How can this continue ?
The madness of it all
Why will we let it continue
How can we be so ignorant
Wheres the fight in us
How did we become weak
We used to fight
We used to care
We gathered for peace
Now we are just ignorant sheep
Think about that for while
Will it change
Will we just let it be
Stand by watch it destroy
Sit there with no thought
Its just madness after all
© Jennifer L DeLong 10/31/2020

Time ever flowing
Faster and faster
I age with each minute
Faster and faster
Its not slowing down
Its just going by faster and faster
Time ever flowing

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/31/2020

I walk inside seeing my blood flow through the winding paths
I see the many cells all working
together
I feel the warmth of my skin
I hear my heart its rhythmic beats
Its in hear I come to know
how it all works to keep me
here healthy & strong
Its a strange thing indeed
Its a beautiful work of art
Taking a walk into me
Was a adventure
I won' t soon forget
© Jennifer L DeLong 10/30/2020

You DON'T deserve a second chance
Your can't undo what's been done
You stole my things that are irreplaceable & were special to me
You have broken the trust
You cant undo it not this time
Even though your my daughter
I have to walk away
I am hurting
I can't figure out why
After all my pain in my life
You choose to hurt me
You broke my trust
I can't replace those
sadly you knew
and did it anyway
So with that
Your on your own
Broken trust
© Jennifer L DeLong 10/29/2020

Tried of all the *******
I can't seem to rid my life of all the pain that keeps happening
Honestly , I am a kind empath
I do for others and my karma
is good for that I can say
When you have been through
what , I have in my life
Believe me its only peace
good laughs , good friends
you want a little happiness
So what the hell is this ..
My past lives must be haunting
me in this life
cause this **** is ridiculous
I feel like someones battling ram
Really about to loose it
& that will not be good
My inner spirit is a rhino
Thats 3 tons and a horn
gotta say , I hope they run
cause that is coming outta of a 115 lb women  
That won't end well
I can not go there
I can not
So Dam it
Give me a break
already
Seriously
So mote it be

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/29/2020