Why did it have to happen
What is it , I am supposed to learn from it ?
If my life wasn't perfect already
Well now it's gone to ****
Walking around with a mask on
What used to be me
My uniqueness
What's that ?
No hugs Stay away
No going out
No rock concerts
That was what keep me alive
That's what made it worth it ..
Not alone sheltered from living and laughing
Being with others
Going places
Enjoying being alive
Enjoying the beauty of nature
That's living
Talk about depression
I wonder why keep living
Alone and Depressed
I wonder why ?
What's this life lesson
What did. I do in a past life
to deserve this ..
Hmmm ...
© Jennifer L DeLong 10/24/2020

I like to take my memories for a walk
Every now and then
To chat and reminese
It's at times quite intense
But what isn't
To look back see from here
To chat and hear it again
Quite refreshing
I must admit
To take a walk with the memories
It's good every now and then

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/2020

Sometimes , I feel lost
Sometimes , I wonder where I'm going
What becomes of me
It's truly a anxious thought
We don't know
The future is unknown
I sure hope it's rather good
Well whats good ?
It's well plenty happy
Full of laughter at least some
And maybe someone to hold my hand
Yea that's good
Sooner then later
So , I don't get lost
At least before it's to late
© Jennifer L DeLong  🦏 10/2020

chills
Crawling up my spine
Creeping by you try
But , I know your here
You wanna be heard
I'm right here
Your so cold
Your crying out
I'm right here
Let me set you free
Release the chains
Release your pain
I'm here , I can help
Let me set you free

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/22/2020

Dealing with being replaced
It's a different beast
It's not that your less then
or that your not as good
It's simply means your value is to costly
So they found a cheaper one
It's just as painful and frustrating
No warning no heads up
So yes it's difficult
Your left with now what
Your left with nothing
Your trust issues resurface
Your belief in what you invested your time is ..
it's gone just like that
So here , I am now
trying to deal with this beast
© Jennifer L DeLong 12/08/19

People always find me such a mystery ..
It's how and who  , I am
I am always a bit hidden
I don't reveal it all
For that I leave it up to you
To ponder or guess
it's always interesting the things
that people come up with.
Some funny some so not me
It's not that I'm hiding
or crazy
It's just how , I am it's a bit of my witchy my spiritual self
I find it quite **** actually
So be what it is
I'm just a mystery but if you
really pay attention
You will see I'm not all that
mysterious but you must admit
you kinda like it
That I leave a bit for you to ponder
(C) Jennifer L Dlg 9/2019