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Akemi Aug 2014
******* pathetic
I lace my tongue with regret before my lips even open
Who the **** wants to deal with that?

9:55pm, August 7th 2014

Choke and sputter.
Akemi Aug 2014
You remind me
of months of loneliness;
an ache I held dearly
between the crooked ribs of my memory.

Cracked open, I could find you nestled,
shrouded in hazel locks.
Your lungs breathless in awe,
bones and dead tissue.

I watch the freckles on your skin evaporate,
dissipate, evade my glance.
You remind me of loss, love and heartbreak;
hopelessness.
4:08am, August 4th 2014

I don't think I'll ever understand the phrase "let it go". Every moment of the past defines you. How could anyone be so foolish to forget that?
I do not believe morality exists as a scale. Benevolent acts do not resolve you of the malevolent. They both exist independent of one another. No matter how much good you do, you will have still done the bad.
The spiteful acts of my past drive me to become a better person. I may be a changed man now, but I'll never let that past cruelty out of my sight. It has defined me, and it will continue to define me.
Akemi Jul 2014
I refuse to be alone
Because of the blood on my fingertips
Or the gunpowder
Sunken into my bones

I made my mark in the past
And the plaster beneath my feet
Is a coward’s retreat
For living

What’s past is passed
What’s dead can never be
The blisters I crave
Have long healed

I have always been whole
11:18am, July 17th 2014

The only thing stopping me from living is myself.
Akemi Jul 2014
With my head in the clouds
The weight of my thoughts will bring the ******* sky down
I'm not sure when I wrote this... it was just saved on my phone.
Akemi Jul 2014
I’ve felt happiness sink
In this tremor flesh
Sometimes I don’t think it’ll ever rise back up again

Pale figures stretch
Themselves apart at the wrist
Living transient
Beautiful deaths

I know the shift and the slide of my aches
More intimately than love
Or lust

I think when lovers collide
Bloom, then die
They depart redefined
12:10 July 7th 2014

Happiness has always felt so ephemeral to me.
try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail try fail
Akemi Jul 2014
Waste your care
We all lie in parallel lines
And one step over
Can fray the strongest ties

We all break
No one suffers indefinitely
Vices sink
The strongest voices in the sea

Without love
I’ve withered apart
And watched my former self depart
4:19pm, July 5th 2014

We are all human. We all face similar struggles. Don't close yourself off to love.
Akemi Jul 2014
Binge boar
Sink your tusks
Play dead and rot
Your pillow lungs

Wear your fur over fester
Clean your mouth with mud
Tear your remnant upon
Your blackened tongue
6:28pm, July 4th 2014

Addiction. Denial is the worst thing you could do.
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