I wish the mind was as self-healing as the **body

The ground looks so
     Appetizing
     From up this high
         I wanna find out if I can ******* fly

I wanna feel something before I hit the
      Bottom
                     I would love to relish in your blood-soaked nirvana

      I made you as comfortable as possible while you slit my throat
          I may be dead but my
   Wings are sewn with a different thread of gristle and bone

    If redemption is real and I have time to ****,
      I wonder how the fall will

         *Feel

You are the truest part of me
When I close my eyes, it is not to sleep,
But to fade into a place where holding onto you keeps me sane and safe.
It is often called reality.
And any place where our love is stopped from flourishing
Is nothing more than an ill conceived nightmare.

I still have faith I'll wake up to a bouquet of your kisses, sweeter than any rose could hope to be.

Cut cut cutting* out the cardboard of my tongue
I can no longer taste your kiss as my body has gone numb
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
Chopped off at the root of me, my essence running red

Something stupid, clumsy and dark stumbles at my door
I told you to get out of here and not come back no more
But silly you you slit your throat and dont know how to sew
Looking in my window for answers, acting like I know

Choke me with a guitar string, this music will be the death of me
But it'll get me lots of ***, so I don't even sweat the heat
Time will stop ticking when the world has finally lost its rhythm
And I'll be sitting on an oil drum screaming out of tune at children

Old men die just to do it once and see if they survive
While im happy just popping pills to see if im alive
I can no longer taste your kiss as my body has gone numb
But I still feel my way around the barrel of my gun

There's no more time to spend
    On all the reality of things
         Because I've gone broke
      Listening to your crazy *dreams

I can sense your whispers through my dreams before I've even fallen asleep
Even though you're not there, I'll make myself believe you're next to me
Your voice echoes through my mind, saying the words 'I love you' on repeat
When I wake up, I'll imagine you're where you are supposed to be
I'll feel the space around me
When I feel nothing
The tears will fall so suddenly
And I won't be able to stop myself from crying
But I'll just remember your face and the plans we've made
And slowly those tears will start to fade
Then a smile will form upon my face
Where there's a will, there's a way
And I know we'll have our say
Together forever and 5 more days
I've loved you every moment from the start
And no amount of time together or apart
Will lessen the love that grows every day deep within my heart