autumn autumn well where are you
where are you and your mouth where are you
and your music is the same fall autumn where
where are you why I can't hear everything
why can't I hear or hear everything
and I do not hear you and I do not hear or see
I am yours your mouth

oh autumn oh autumn knock you again you
come to my door come to me my
great inspiration my great revelation
oh come in oh come in and heat you run me like
man demand i demand new updates
and new i'm like person like person want
new water and new food

and again the stars in the sky will play and sing
and again there will be people all singing on their phones
and again and again and again and again I will go
I will go without knowing where and why and I will go
and I will go I will go only in gold only
in the cold only in devastation which means in
too strong filled place

11.10.18

I looked at the mesmerized calendar
here and my autumn passes but so quite
It was recently the end of august
most recently was september and now
here and here almost october has passed
almost that our autumn flashed and why
and why does she run away so fast

day after day day after day day shifts
turns day and night lights up and night disappears
and the night sings and my eyes are burning and my eyes
mine brighter and brighter from its emptiness from its
silence from your silence louder and louder
ignite about so many years already passed as if
and one minute has passed and even nothing at all

10.10.18

quiet quiet in the night room now
quiet quiet it's time to close soon
close my eyes again today
and again and again go to miracles
and again and again feel some dreams
only dreams only dreams

the light and the light burns and says and
says his bright and bright greetings and
hello o light and light o light and light
soon and soon it's time for everyone to sleep
soon and soon only the moon will warm
she alone in the sky night and lonely

09.10.18

and live in immense solitude
every day and every night every
hour and every minute in this world
and everyone is not in the world and in the dark
be alone every day
every day walking among people
and be and be alone forever
great loneliness among people
some people are about so many smiles on
their mouths but i only have grief in my eyes

and in this world I am eternal destiny and on this
in the light i'm an eternal hostage eternal prisoner
and please my cell is my prison
great my loneliness is long long
everlasting everlasting loneliness that never
did not begin and never ended
and that never comes to an end and
never come to the beginning so many years
and so many winters among the peaks and always one

08.10.18

outside the window comes autumn outside the window goes
it goes slowly outside the window
outside the window is a favorite sweet time

outside the window snow rushing outside the window
fly they fly they are my joyful children
my yellow lovely leaves are running through the window

about how many years about how many days and hours
I breathe here among the houses in the middle of the moon
among the lanterns and among the stars alone


time passes it passes it rushes
flies and flies like a bird in the sky like cold
and how warm it all runs and runs

smiles and sorrows tears and dreams of joy and
only grief and love and gaze at the sea
all over and over with me all over and over

о the immortal melody
oh how much more will you be here oh how much
still i will be here such a sad joyful wanderer

07.10.18

and again salutes outside the window and again
they and they again and I still watch
on their old old lost
lost pieces of paper scruffy

battered by this time by these
over the years with these watches over the centuries
considerations all all all that
eat in this dark bright summer light

and again the window and again the walls and again
it and again it spun one in
huge terrible waltz since the soul
mine is yours and all this is one continuous howl

and since my truth is yours all that
was and always will be forever and how
all this huge dance dance dance
huge black man dance or

or what or and when or and whether
it or well anyway well anyway i
will utter this final word final
word word ending life is death

and only death in the world exists and
of course the birth though there are doubts
probably only death and she alone
and life and our life was not and never will
never

06.10.18

closed door waiting for the cold
pending pending frosts pending
huge waiting behind and ahead waiting
waiting for cold and light of light
from somewhere from earth from
somewhere from the sky and lightning
to be around and heavy rain
so that the sun finally disappeared from
the shoulders and disappeared

every day behind a closed window behind closed doors
knocking knocking me a frosty frosty man
man he tells me about frost and snow everywhere
he already has everything and only we have it all and no
here we sit in the hot hot sun which is not no temperature
absolute nothing too much sun and it's autumn

I know there are ships somewhere and there are islands lost
and I know there is ice there they swim all swim but let's
where are you all from where are the penguins from
where is ice cream where does all this
all this all this bright circle
you walk on the asphalt feet offended you look at the sky
and all already flowing I broke up we are cold we are cold people
we have cold but not often in the eyes but love kills

05.10.18