You said it first
Those words I was always afraid of
You said it first
And God it scared me to death

I thought I was never enough
I was never beautiful enough
I never reached your level of class
You were a bad boy
And i was " that girl"

The fact that you said those words first
Is exactly why I could never repeat them
But you had  me tangled in your Web
That you woven so easily with the feelings you thought you had for me

I was so caught up in those words
I didn't realize you were slowly slipping from my grip
I guess I was so afraid to love you
That I didn't bother to hold you tighter
I was so afraid that you loved me first
That it made me believe you weren't honest
now that you've slipped away from me
God, how I wish I could've told you

How I wish I told you I loved you
How I wish I told you that you were exactly what I wanted, needed, yearned for
How you made me feel  better
How you made pain feel like joy

And now that you've slipped away from me
I only admit it to myself
I loved you Wyatt , more than anything
And it's because you loved me first
Is why I didn't tell you I loved you
Because you loved me first
I didn't think you'd ever leave.

With you I was in love with
Blinded by the endless rows of others
Believing that I was the problem
The problem was I couldn't see
Never did I realize that it was you

All this time you were the comfort I preferred
The smile I favoured
The green eyes I thought of
And the one I was in love with

I had you behind the tag " best friend"
It's not that I wanted you there
It's just I thought you belonged there
It only felt right that you were there

Then I messed up, and you left
Crushed doesn't even begin to explain it
Breathing became uneasy
Living became unbearable
And when you returned
My lungs were now fulfilled with air
Because without you I couldn't breathe

I had to tell you, so you wouldn't leave again
That's it's always been you
I've always loved just you
That your smile was my favorite
And your green orbs kept up at night

And when I finally let it slip
You sighed in relief
Because all this time you knew
It was you.

Although you aren't a big eater, you snack on several unhealthy foods.
2. Your middle name is Andrew.
3. You thought a 'henna' was pronounced 'hyena'.
4. Watermelon flavored gum is your favorite.
5. You are 5,8"
6. You always come to my home games, even when you miss a few important plays.
7. You're #5 usually, but you are  #10 when you wear the maroon jerseys.
8. You know the lyrics to my favorite Taylor Swift song.
9. You are a huge fan of the Jags.
10. When you were 8 years old, your family forgot you to your own birthday dinner.
11. You notice different things I do with my eyeliner.
12. You draw stupid things in Spanish class.
13. Your favorite place to eat is Rib City.
14. You don't ever mind buying me smoothies.
15. You always put your hand on my thigh when we watch scary movies.
16. You remember it was a Friday in which you asked me out.
17. Although you own several t-shirts, you don't own any Florida Gator hoodies.
18. But you call yourself a fan.
19. You weren't impressed with Mockingjay Pt. 1.
20. I cannot stop thinking about you, especially on Saturday nights when I am not with you.
21. We have the same scar on our left hands and our ring fingers.
22. You take pictures of me when I'm not looking, but you delete them when I ask you to.
23. You have never told me I'm stupid, even when I am.
24. You don't like the beach.
25. You always wait for me at the end of class so we can walk together.
26. You remember what color shoes I wear on important days.
27. You don't get mad at me when I miss important parts of your game, as long as I am there.
28. You give me more hugs from behind than you do regular hugs.
29. Kisses on the cheek make you smile.
30. No one has ever been on my mind more than you.