I'm your mother,
You're my son
In fantasy we are as one.

Stay away,
We cancel out,
Keep a distance safe with me.

I'm contracted
To contract,
I can't let you out again.

I'm a black hole.
I'm infertile.
Won't you please
Just be my sun?

Eyes like ravens of the sun
Lips that beat my heart
Body finer then all of the diamonds
Hair that tempted Lucifer from heaven to touch

A Laugh that the birds could not compete
Even her cute little one dimple makes you want to
wage a war in her name
I have never believed in love but if anyone could make me believe,
It would be her


But what drives you most crazy about this woman is her soul
Deep within the bones melted inside of the city of her
Is just so perfect like when you find a 100 dollar
Bill unexpectedly and you just

Can't

Stop

Smiling

All the rivers have run dry
and all the bridges have been burnt to the ground
someone buried the hatchet ages ago
everyone knows but me
won't you turn around, you may see
a whirling mass of rolling ash
and there's me, standing solitary in the enveloping plumes
with hammer and tools in hand
no one told me you can't ever fix a broken heart.

Every time I talk to you my heart breaks a little more
I didn’t know that was possible
you have broken it so many times before
with your words, and your actions, and your back as it walked away from me
I try not to talk to you, but I just can’t seem to let it be
I look for a sign in between your words and make up story lines in my head
But in the end, nothing really matters, what was once between us, is now dead

It’s one year later now
And all your pictures are gone
It’s two girls later and yet you’re still the one
That I’m writing about and I don’t understand
Why I can’t let you go
There was little to nothing that was so special
About the week and a half we shared
You’re not the only one I’ve stayed awake until
3 A.M. for and you’re not the only girl who has ever made me smile
I’ve had more empty promises than the one you made
To me concerning backpacks and hospital beds
Maybe it’s because you’re the only one who has used me the way you did
I guess I was like medication for your anxiety
You insisted I didn’t have to be here and I told you
I knew what I was doing
When I took the class the next semester it almost killed me
Because I had to do it alone
And I felt so lost
When the doctor asked me if I was on any medication
It was all I could do not to scream your name
*~W.C.

every morning i wake up
aching

eyes closed
i count out my fingers
and toes

still there when i open
my eyes i know

it is you
that is missing

The walls of my heart,
they clench me in.
The voices in my head,
they tell me the worst things I've always read.
The words I hear,
they're the things that I always fear.
The dinner I ate,
I let them find their way back up.
The ink in my wrists,
I watch them flow from thin lines.
The fear I feel,
they make the monsters real.
The anxiety I feel,
it overwhelms me.
The things I feel,
they make me hate me.
they make me loathe me.
they **** me.