Every time I looked into or even glanced any social networks
it always came with a furious  "What are you doing, hm? Why are you liking guys pictures?"
"Babe, their my friends, I've known them for a long time. "
, which later will blow up into arguments on "Why can't it just be us?"
My world was shrinking by the minute, and my heart shriveling up.
"It's okay" I would convince myself.
It will get better.
He will change.
It never did
The arguments became frequent
The isolation became the norm.
Being in a room alone would be my job.
Just to please this man.
My friends would tell me
"Leave  hes not good for you anymore"
Stubbornly I would stay.
Arguments would end up being yelling matches.
At one point he raised his hand to me.
These red flags I ignored because
I thought I found the one.
I cut my friends, and left my family
to live a life with him.
Until one day I thought,
"Is this even right?"
I talked to friends, which all said the same thing
"Leave"
Hell , I even flipped a coin, and it told me to leave.
I packed my stuff and left.
With tears in my eyes I never felt so
Free.

Whomever you may be,
Whatever gender, color, height, or whatever career you decide to have later on in your life...
I want to first off tell you,
I love you!
It may be years until I see your faces
Because I do not plan to have children until later on, but I do know...
I will love you no matter what.
On another note...
Here are things I do not want you to go through alone:

Identity issues- I will always be here for you and I will understand you through your crisis. I will help the best way I can- even if that is constantly making you laugh with lame corny jokes!

Sexuality- Whatever gender you prefer or if you are confused or even if you decide to have a *** change... I don't care! As long as you are happy!

Body Image: If you ever sad about your body or see something wrong with yourself ... Please tell me. You are beautiful. I do not want you to cry yourself to sleep because you hate yourself. I will help you. I promise. You will learn that what we must seek is the beauty within ourselves. You will never be alone through this process.

Relationships: PLEASE ALWAYS INFORM ME! I ALWAYS WANT TO KNOW WHEN YOU ARE DATING SOMEONE BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT YOU DREPRESSED AFTER THE BREAKUP. PLEASE. I WILL HELP YOU WITH THE HEARBREAK WHEN YOU HAVE ANY.
And when you find the one I want to celebrate with you!!!!

School: Best believe I will bother the hell out of you if you persue a higher education and leave my sight. It is never fun to face stress by yourself. Trust me.

In other words,
I don't want you to think you are alone in the world or that you have to face the struggles of this world alone!
I want you to be able to rely on me.
And it pains me to ever think that you will go through the same  Self struggles I have.
I do not ever want you to be crying yourself to sleep for any reason.
Or worry yourself about nonsense
And let that worry consume your sleep.
I will never let that slip pass me!
Therefore, I promise, I will always be here for you. Always.
I will always listen and try to be understanding.
Any time of the day and any time of the year, I will be there for you!
I want you to rely on me as a parent and know that I will go to the ends of the earth for you.
Sincerely,
Your future mother, DLM.