Mariah

Mariah Jun 28

Who, me?

I am impulsive
I am strange
Lying in the bed I made

I am anxious
I am loud
I won't make my parents proud

I am restless
I am tired
I'm not one to be admired

I am obnoxious
I am trite
Burning bridges keep me warm at night

I am indecisive
I am sure
Enjoying what I haven't earned

I am curious
I am afraid
Cleaning up a mess I made

I am grateful
If I am at all
I have no regrets that aren't absolved

Your guess is as good as mine.

#revised #personal #growth #duality #change #bpd #ocd #disabled #manic #chaos

Mariah Jun 27

And I love her

My younger self would
love that I watch the movies
she did too, back then.

Twilight on rainy days, unashamed.

#nostalgic #haiku #love #nostalgia #kid #self #reminiscent #reflecting #unashamed #acceptance

Mariah Jun 20

Leave me behind

Guilt, guilt, guilt
As far as I can see

Weight, weight, wait!
Its crashing down on me

Shame upon my name
Rehabilitate with blame

Change, change, strange
Things still stay the same

I don't know if this makes sense but I feel it anyway.

#bpd #ocd #paranoia #guilt #shame #remorse #regret #disgust

Mariah Jun 19

Blue feelings, black remorse

Thank the God I don't believe in
Thank the ones I do
Thank the mistakes I've made
And how they beat me blue

guilty guilty guilty

#bpd #ocd #regret #meloncholy #mistakes #depression #guilt #remorse

Jun 19

Peter Gerstenmaier

Palestine