Look at yourself
from these mud brown eyes
Then maybe
You'd see the fire in yours

Your words filled the crevices inside my mind and they manifested into that mess that you address me as

You simultaneously created and destroyed me

I don't want to talk about school or how your last test went or any small talk for that matter

I want you to tell me about that new book you've gotten lost in or the way your father's voice shakes as he erupts in anger and blame for the third time that day

Tell me about the scar that's just above your left eyebrow and why a candle is your favorite metaphor

Show me the hidden parts of yourself and for you I might do the same

My favourite song comes from your heartbeat

My wishes come from the galaxies in your eyes

My sense of comfort comes from your embrace, for I am safest when your body interwines with mine

Our worlds collided by fate, they molded by luck

I trusted you with my life, you knew every aspect of it

I trusted you with the crossed lines on my thighs that are as open as I was to you

All I asked was my secret to be kept safe but I suppose that's another promise you couldn't keep

Give me back my secrets they are not yours to keep, maybe they could have been, had    i not been decieved

You are in each tear that traces the familiar path down my face to the ground beneath me

Slowly the water rises
drowning me and leaving me completely emersed in your being.

You wouldn't want rememberance of the end but it's always here clouding the back of my mind

I can hear the beeps of machines and the way your laugh has weakened

I can feel your yellowed skin that is cold at the touch

I can smell that distinctive scent that comes along with hospitals, rubbing alcohol and old people

I can see the hope that left everyone's eyes when we recieved word

It was a hell of a fight

Words with such substance deserve to be preserved

A sweet moment or a tender touch is sufficient enough

It does not always need to be said when your eyes can tell me instead

When used as a filler it fills me with nothing

If I could I would plant sunflower seeds
on every inch of my body
so I know that
one day
I would become
beautiful

I crave the feeling of being whole

To feel complete

But too often my thoughts come in waves and take parts of me away with the tide

It leaves me with the familar void that needs to so often be filled

Several shots of ***** later

A few drags later

A couple one night stands later

I am filled

I am filled until I wake from the feeling of water on my toes once again

Bring me to serenity, let me be peaceful

Bring me to a place that my mind can wander and my thoughts can fathom

Show me that the ocean so violent and unforgiving can still have moments of calm

Show me that my mind so dark and cloudy can still have flowers bloom, even in the harshest of conditions

Bring me to serenity, let me be peaceful