The state of which a situation can go one way or another
The point at which you leave
The point of which I crash and fall
It's heart wrenching for me to sit by and be unable to help
While you do exactly the same
I may as well be picking the flesh from my chest
One tear at a time
While you drink yourself to sleep
Is there really nothing we can do to save one another?
Will we quit playing pretend?
Or are we forever ****** to stay here
In the in between
Not knowing
Never knowing
Always
unsure

I was more intent
on the idea that I
fell in love with you

It's almost like
I close my eyes and you're gone
I don't feel you anymore
Like I used to
It's been too long
I reach out but all I see
Is darkness
Surrounding me
A void of which I can't control
You were all I had
I gave it all
Heart and soul
Only to close my eyes and have you go
Just like that, it's crazy
You know
To think
Once was there like the loudest drum
Only to murmur now
The slightest hum
It beats for you no more
You see
It's ok, I'll be right
I can breathe
I'll open my eyes for all to see
In hope that someone
Is reaching back
for me
x

It's a gem to find peace in your own
company
Usually I'm at war
With my own thoughts
An introvert
battling an extrovert
Scrubbing so hard at the many masks I wear
Only to breakdown in tears
Or blood
Whichever
However*
Right now I find balance
Between my right side
and the left
So I may suffer in silence
Or just take a moment
to rest
Whichever it is that is going on
I'm simply
at peace