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oops I mean sorry
haven't wrote in awhile
been MIA, kind of
usually my words are my feelings
my thoughts, actions, throughout life
yet I cannot combine the two
I am misconstrued, definitely
lost between a black hole and space
as if that made quite the difference
HA

oops
I'm doubting my own self
depicting all my faults
limb by limb
until I fall apart

tell me how much more can I resist?
can I handle until I'm done
am I done?

your heart is black
you taste like honey
don’t care about anyone but the money
retrace your steps back to where our paths crossed
went left & that’s where you went wrong
i followed you and your impure thoughts

lick my lips as you taste so sweet
too bad your soul is as dead as can be
but there is no stopping me
from falling in love
with the wrong things

escaping
* hiding
underneath
my true feelings

an urge to escape
what feels like a dream
i open my eyes and i simply can't believe
out of nowhere you appeared to me
from thin air
traveling at the light of speed

yet not quick enough
before i let love in i cut my heart to bleed
amongst the ground into tiny pieces
of me

escaping
im hiding
underneath
my true feelings

idk how much i can take of this anymore
looking for any reason to walk out the door
with love in the air i hold my breath
while fear pushes me to the brink of death

so many different places to hide
if i let you in
where goes my pride
how long till this love thing dies

and honestly
i stop to think
am i strong enough
strong enough for love

watching the sunrise with you
a true beginning of each day
its radiance danced on our skin
goose bumps travel from the tips of our body warming inch by inch into our hearts,
warm bodied and full of life
its your love that drives me insane
day by day
my heart glows into my aura that shines on the outside
much like the sun

living in the present
remembering the past
reminiscing in thoughts of the last glance
in pursuing the future

- past-

you used to live but a few houses down
"together forever", yet you were nowhere to be found
drunk in love nonetheless stuck in a funk
dreamt of a life , where two wrongs make a right
but the future to be deemed was never in sight

- present day -

hearts beating simultaneously
the stars sparkle throughout the night sky
as daylight seems to pass on by
pieces of me were scrambled in the world
but you put me back together and made me your girl


-  contemplating -

this man i met
resembles a part of the past
i cannot seem to fathom
struggling to grasp
the concept of love

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imagine the day, a few houses distanced
imagine the day i knew of your existence
imagine love, without resistance