stay up all night
my eyes are red from crying
ask me how did i sleep
i say, "just fine"

i admit i haven't been alright

its just one of those days
but its everyday
and i never have the urge to change

something inside
its different in me..
no longer alive
i don't even breathe

a prisoner in disguise
a prisoner in my own mind
in my bed full of lies

academy award for the actress I've become

explicit
like bic
high on flames
lit like ****
hard as ****
hard *** fit
looking like a hit
shoot at me and you miss
sad for you ,what a diss
i said hello little miss
tryna get at your sis
haven't met my goal yet
not even  in debt
bet.

ok im sorry
i cant help myself by sitting from behind this laptop
and complain
i know im the poison that drives myself insane
and speaking of this door
that slams right in my face
i don't know what im doing anymore
i cant help in feeling this way
puts myself in dismay

im built behind this screen
i write to free me
but you don't really know me
you might never know me

in my heart
in my soul
through my brain
nobody knows

read me like a book
so recycled
used to the idea of me
as i'd ever be free
you know life  is pretty funny when it tries to  plays me
am i really free or stuck in a place of hiding