If you were the sky
Then I'd be the sea
And when you shined bright
It would reflect in me.
When you're at rest
Then I am steady.
If you wanna get rough
I'm always ready.
Past closing at the bars
If you show me the stars
I'll open right up
And cast them out far.
And on the darkest night
If you won't shine a light.
Then I'm silent alongside you
Until you feel right.
We'll meet at the horizon
Where lovers will stare
And wonder with passion
Why they can't meet there.
And you'll share me a kiss
As bright as two suns.
When they meet in the middle
I'll know the days done.
And I can tell that's your way of saying to me.
Goodnight my love.
If you were the sky and I were the sea.

jealousy
and i'm not afraid to admit it
i sit around all day hating that i'm alone
but the grass is always greener and i know
that if i got what i wanted it would be
the opposite of what i wanted
and i'd hate being known
open and bare and exposed
as the day i was born
but i just want somebody
to have and to hold
passion and blood and
arm rubs when i get cold
hands in mine, on me and
a promise that he'll never leave me and
i love the way a back looks
but not when it's walking out my door
i'll be afraid to close my eyes when we kiss
just in case i might miss
a flicker of regret or disinterest on his face
and if that's the case my heart will fall
and revert to its brokenness from before it all went right
i don't remember not wanting
or waiting
hoping and praying
for something i might not even want after all
jealousy
misplaced, maybe, but placed nonetheless

i loved you
not because of your scent
or because of the crinkle in your eyes

i did not love you
because of the melody in your laughter
or the brightness of your smile

no.

i did not love you because you gave me flowers
or because you sang me a song.

and i certainly did not love you
because of the warmth of your embrace
or the softness of your hand in mine.

i did not love you
because you stayed up hours to talk to me.

no.

i loved you because you saw what no one else
ever saw in me.

i opened my closet of monsters to you
and even with fear in your eyes
you embraced me.

i loved you because
you still stayed beside me
despite the fact i was not as beautiful as you.

i loved you because of the gentle patience
you gave to me when i was filled with nothing
but doubt and despair.

i loved you because of the time
you spent with me
when i was scared of my own self.

i loved you because despite the fear i instilled in not only
myself, but you as well,
you tamed me.

you loved me when i did not love myself
and for that,
i truly did love you.

Everyone will tell you that you’ll get over it,
that you will meet someone new and
all the feelings will quickly be forgotten.
For a long time you won’t believe that is true.

It may take you days or weeks or maybe months
you feel like you are going crazy
because all you can think or talk about is
that one person that left you in pieces.

You will try distract yourself,
whether it be with work or alcohol
or even a stranger and you will begin to feel
like nothing will ever work.

You will try and convince yourself it’s a sign,
that the person that broke you
is the one that can fix you rather then you
continuing to try fix yourself.

You won’t want to get out of bed,
you won’t want to go to work,
you won’t want to see your friends,
all you want is to see them;

But one day you will wake up and
you won’t pretend they are there beside you,
you’ll listen to those songs again
without thinking about them

and you will return to the places
the two of you spent time
because it will no longer
remind you of the memories.

You will sit there and realise
the faults you saw in them
weren’t what made them human
but instead completely wrong for you

and most importantly you will see
that if that person was really that special,
they would have realised
that you are too.

The end of the disintegration
not just missing the companionship
but the swelling of seas and the thought
of ships colliding.
I don't miss you nearly as much
...as I miss your touch.

I miss your inner thighs,
your loud moans
and cries -
of pleasure.
As I stroked you
up and down,
and swirled my tongue
kissing you in hidden places.

My legs up high,
your heart,
pulsing.
your face
between my legs,
me convulsing.

As the slow flicker
of your tongue across
the top of me,
makes me swell
like the rageous of seas.

I swear I won't
hold it against you,
just you against me,
and when the fun is over -
I won't resist to let you free.

Just let me know in this,
this feeling of reminisce...
If I'm alone in it.
That you miss the clashing of
our bodies and the way
our bodies meld.
and I'm not the only one in Texas
who wouldn't mind being held.

he was out there finding someone new already
i was here finding myself
learning to live with myself
filling in the void that you left behind
that no one but myself can replace
maybe i wasn't good enough
but that was a reflection of yourself, not me
(this i am still learning)

he has someone new in his bed tonight
while i was there one week ago with him
i may be alone now, night after night
but at least i am brave enough to find myself
and i don't need another hand to hold, to fill your void
like you had to fill mine that i left behind

She's sitting alone in the dark tonight
You haven't seen all the tears she cried
You haven't seen all the wounds she hides
She keeps her deepest feelings inside

And she'd stand for him in the pouring rain

Just so, she could be in his arms again

If he left she'd never feel the same

He's the blood that flows through her veins

In her heart is the place he'll always remain

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

This girl could cave in anytime
This girl feels invisible all the time
She's trying so hard to show him the sign
That she wants him by her side
And it's only a matter of time
Before she decides
Whether she'll stay his prisoner tonight
She'd give everything to break out of the chains
But she's still burning in the flames
And she still feels the shame
She feels part of the blame.

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

Regrets we've all had a few
But the girl doesn't realise
The boy is hiding things from her to
She wants to make a change
He secretly calls out her name
The mascaras running beneath her eyes
She's wiped those tears a million times
But it's alright to cry
Over the boy too shy to give her his time
Over the boy who misses all the signs
Over the boy who can't see her dying inside

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

©2017 Written By Benji James