I am writing this just to keep sane
Stop switching lanes and deal with the pain
I’m going to stay same and never give in to shame
I don’t see this as a game, what I’m saying is real
That’s why you feel every line that I spill
Every emotion comes from the notion
That we are the panacea for the poison
Explosion of our hearts started with the sparks
That ignited our greed amidst the dark
So now we find ourselves led by the misled
Bred like a hoard of cattle waiting to be shred
We focus on materials and ignore the cries
‘Cause it’s easier to watch from an iPad, as a baby dies
We work, struggle, and beg for a promotion
Instead of pouring our hearts into a positive devotion
Every person fueled by their own ambition
And integrity is at loss on our way to this mission

By Vladislav Vagner
http://www.poemjunction.net

I woke up this morning feeling out of the norm.
I could not fathom why this was as the day went on.
But sometime around midnight it all came back to me,
it was my most recent dreams. They sunk into me like knives through the heart.

I was on a rollercoaster, alone in a dark space, the neon lights clouding any incentive.
I closed my eyes in complete terror, and I watched our history speed by in the darkness.
Around and round I went, wondering why I had ever bothered.

And when it was all over, you were waiting outside.
You saw me, noticed my panic, and you fled without looking back.

There was a time nothing could tear us apart.
You were the opposite strip to a magnetic field, constantly pulling us together,
even when every piece of matter wanted us to part.
And I loved our connection, I loved the pull that would never let me go.

But when I opened my eyes, I knew. I was the one pulling.
I was the positive to the negative that became one neutral state.  

Even my subconscious sought to warn me of the anticipated destruction of our magnetic attraction.
And I wondered what possibility there would ever be that you could accept your polar opposite.

Yet I fear the next dream will simply show me the end of it.
I expect no outcome, I expect nothing at all.
For my life is dedicated to attracting a negative, something to become one.
And without you, I am nothing. Living without meaning, living without possibility.
Simply awaiting the next time my mind spins me in circles,
and brings me to my greatest fears, and also to the worst of them all.
Life without you. This is where I say goodbye, as the black hole takes me into bewilderment.

I remember the first time I saw you.
The image still lingers in my dreams.
The late summer sun radiating off your face,
your beautiful brown eyes captivating my entirety with such force.

I remember the first time I spoke to you,
My legs quivering in fear, and you were oblivious to my infatuation.

I remember the first time I kissed you,
The small sound you made, the smile on your face,
And you were unaware how much I longed for that moment to last.

I remember the first time you realized my heart was yours for the taking.
You told me I was brave, and I laughed in silence at my own terror.

I remember the first time I realized I love you.
I remember the exact moment.
I took hold of you, and kissed you like I never had before,
because I knew nothing could ever feel better than that precise moment.
And I let the memory prolong itself until I could see you again.
And as I watched the mountains roll by, alone, and lost,
I never lost sight of you. I never lost the image of your smile,
the sound of your voice, the feel of your touch.
The hope you made me feel. The safety, the fearlessness.
Because with you, I am never lost.
I am simply on a never ending road with a love so strong,
That I will never lose my way again.

I now see why people call it
"falling in love",
because you don't just trip,
you can't stand up after
and dust the dirt and blood off of your knees
like nothing ever happened
if the one you are falling for you
doesn't catch you
you can't patch it up with band-aids
and hydrogen peroxide
it's not a little trip
it's an enormous, mountain high fall
and if you don't land just right
you wind up with a broken heart
instead of broken bones