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358 · Sep 2015
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Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I was always proud of you
you were my hero
To watch you grow old
forget your words
repeat yourself
is a painful experience
I was never prepared for this
but time is altering us
so I keep my distance
preferring to remember the past
when I was so naive
and you
still tall
356 · Sep 2015
Being oblivious is poetic
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I relinquish control of others
and assume the role as leader of myself

I feel a throbbing for self gratification
and I'm going for it
pushing and kicking
until I get what I came for

Love is my feeling
I control it
******* too
they're all mine

I feel a need for freedom
so I'm packing my bags
and leaving town with the wind
346 · Sep 2015
To Do List
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I'm trying to make money by selling my soul on the side of the road
unfortunately it isn't worth much
so I'm not selling
345 · Sep 2016
Dream Sequence Begin
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2016
When I was 6 the Devil spoke to me
told me not to believe all the lies they had told
that nothing was real, not even myself

At 9 I met God
he drove away with my mom in the car
she waved goodbye through the window pane
said she was leaving for a better place

Then at 18 I saw them together
both holding pills of different shapes and sizes
I chose the red one and when I awoke
You stood beside me
said it had all been make believe

So I packed my bags
and drove off in the night
praying to heaven or hell
it was just another night
343 · Jan 2016
GAME ON
Cordelia Rilo Jan 2016
my throat is numb from screaming your name
coiled in the fetal position
**** parts pressed against bed sheets
326 · Sep 2015
Sweet Baby
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
You can't keep going
The preacher says to the *****
The candles white light
Burns hot in mama's eyes
Cordelia Rilo Mar 2016
I watched you drive off through rain stained windows
too angry to stop you
too shocked to move

Since you left nothing's been the same
stars we once saw
they've all gone dim
I haven't seen the sun in weeks
the skies permanently gray

I saw your sock in my laundry pile
I washed it
couldn't bare to throw it away

The seasons keep changing
from warm brown to cold black
and I still get your mail sometimes
but not your calls
I run my fingers against your plastic encased name on the envelopes
and hope silently you don't stay gone
299 · Sep 2015
Merry Easter
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
"There's something freeing about bring outdoors,"
she thinks as she rides past the houses on her bike.
She watches as the sun bounces off the houses onto her face
and feels its warmth against her skin.
These houses are expensive
"in the millions",
she says aloud to no one.
She dreams of a life where one of these houses could be hers,
which one she'd own if she could pick any.
She comes to a stop sign and slows to watch the oncoming traffic.
A car waits for her as she speeds past.
She hopes the occupants think she lives around here.
Although she's sure they aren't thinking about her at all.
294 · Sep 2015
Dark Skies. Long Nights.
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
The dragon's tail
will whip the **** out of you
stay close, don't wander
253 · Sep 2015
Just Count to Ten
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
If there are two things I've learned
it's that the tide always changes
and nothing lasts forever
205 · Dec 2019
Hollowgram
Cordelia Rilo Dec 2019
I'm a drug addict
I'm sorry I don't have anything better to say.
Did you know I have secrets I keep from everyone?
Is that normal?
The things I've done for drugs would make me sick so I don't think about them.
Everyone wants to be a better parent than their parent because they did such a bad job, but they did their best and my best will only be sub-par.
Where are we going?
Are we just looking through the rear view mirror as we drive away from the fire?
203 · Sep 2015
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Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
the child is still born
pink skies melt in the background
time for work again

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