Her feet rose and fell
between fields of paddy

the grass bowed
then looked up on her way.

If only she had wings
and the winds carried her to her sister
she could land right on the yard of her hut
and take her home by the return flight
but her mind soared no less
so before the sun favored the west
she was right by her
laughing and talking like the yore
with only a line of vermilion
that she felt had come between them.

Soon she looked around
and making sure no one was watching
brought out from her skirt a mango.

She gave it to her like
she was giving a piece of her heart
plump yellow green
with the most delicious nectar hidden within
and when she narrowed her lips
to drink from the gift
her tears poured like the summer rain
mingling with the cries of the parched earth.

I spend this remaining time thinking of you. This song floats my mind on its stormiest day. I wait for it to calm, but you are all that stays. No matter how much I shake, you stay like a snow globe; no matter how much is around you, your face is a clear picture. This melody sends me back to a time where everything was okay. I sway to the beat wishing you were in my arms. I wish the brightest day was when you smiled in front of me. Your eyes spray sunshine, but our memories tear me apart. I wonder if you'll ever read my pointless poems. I've spent too long regretting what never could be. I'm sitting behind a phone listening for the moment I can burst into a conversation with you, but its 1 am.

Death seduces the weak, and ignores the strong. Suicide roams the air like its a new drug. Death is found in every home, and the last adventure I want to take. I grow to find myself growing weak, anticipating death to kiss me in the moonlight. My world has been spinning, only to see the devil is dancing with us all.

Dear ripped jeans,

Do you believe in love at first kiss? I do
And I think I feel it for you.
The moment our lips touch and don't wanna let go
That feeling like wet tongue on ice
The silence feels like an empty parking lot
My heart racing the moment I feel your curves.
I hope my heart could drift and prevent smashing
I let the heart smash and break down, to avoid a break up
Then my thoughts for you exploded BOOM! And you literally blew my mind
Then I knew you were one of a kind.
I never knew how to stop
The only brake I ever knew was a break up
All I ever think about is that you're beautiful
Cos I love you, I hope you love me too.

Yours truly,
The boy with the black cap.

I was freshly turned 17, you were freshly turned 21.
I didn't know you ***** me at the time, but I now know for sure.
I was madly in love with another woman, frustrated I wasn't getting her.
So you saw an opportunity to teach me the birds and the bees.
Yet you were still a stranger to me.
How could I say no with my raging hormones?
Didn't think that desire would burn into my bones
Never expected an addiction to make its home in me.
In between these years I'm still within that sphere
Another one night stand, another *** buddy, another thrill that kills a part of me.
I bet you didn't think that your in-between-boyfriends-plaything would start doing what you did to me.
Except now I despise myself when I realized I take advantage of my playthings... maybe ***** someone like you ***** me.
I don't blame you, though. I only blame myself.
I'm trying to forgive you, like I'm learning to forgive myself.

somedays I sit
on the edge of sanity
feet dangling in a ocean
of the deepest black water

somedays I stand on the edge
of reality
willing myself not to leap
into the clouds of depression
that float by

somedays I lie in bed
whispering the mantra
circling in my head

I am not here,  I am not here,
                                                    I am not here....

I live in poetry
Even if I can't live off of it

i feel like i'm searching for him in every guy i speak to.
but they never measure up.
conversations with other people just seem so dull & boring...
i wonder if he feels the same?
i doubt he feels the same.

By Arcassin Burnham

Waiting in the mountains of the past sins
That has lead me to this point in time where
All the people that I thought had cared,
abandoned Me in an icy cavern surrounded by
Several land mines and a thousand explosives
Beyond the land of survival,

Guiding my eyes to the wrong things in life where
I make every mistake known to man and hurt
The women that I loved and cared for in their
Desperate times,
Having an unfortunate life and short time spans
While increasing the horrors of my anxiety to
Throw me off the path to acceptance,

or maybe I just think too much.


http://arcassin.blogspot.com/2016/03/think-too-much.html

Whenever you have worries
Or aches within your heart
There's someone who knows
A place where hope can start
So when you need some peace
And someone who will care
You have the reassurance
Your  angel will be there

I thought about us
and
just like that
my night was ruined

does that ever happen to you?