I've fallen
into a torpor pit
swirling blackness
seals my lips
I close my eyes
but all I see is me,
Disengaged
Deranged
there is no reason
for this smothering gray.
I feel your hands
but they don't penetrate,
Your breath is sweet upon my face,
laughter comes from another place,
this silence remains my only respite,
My words are stifled
in my chest,
My poetry shoots blanks
where ever I tread.
Motivation is a thing
of the past,
Desire's gone at last,
Being is all that's
left within my grasp.
Lavender love in
technicolor plays
out on a screen,
Life travels on the
wisps of Monarch wings -
Breathe heavy and
hot,
Breathe light and cold,
My words they freeze
when they hit the snow.
I know dances unfold,
But no dance partner knows
the darkness that's become my
trembling soul.
It is to this enclave
I go
from time to time,
the winds outside
still howl my name,
While demons
bang on the walls
of my shame.
Call it a mood,
Call it a funk,
Call it the blues,
Sometimes
these holes just open,
Inside I go,
No ladder
only a shovel
wouldn't you know.
Doors without keys,
Echoes without sounds,
And all there is
is
the
darkness
I
have constructed
all around.