S h e   h a d   d r e a m t   o f   i t   a l l   o f   h e r   l i f e .
O n e   d a y   h e r   j o y   t o   b e   a   w i f e .
A   l i t t l e   g i r l   w i t h   w o n d e r s   t o   f a c e .
S o   l o v i n g .
S o   k i n d .
S u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   c h i l d .

P l a y i n g   f o r e v e r   a l l   a l o n e .
P l a s t i c   c h i l d r e n   n o w ,   o n e   d a y   h e r   o w n .  
A   l i t t l e   g i r l   l o v e   w o u l d   b e   h e r   g o a l .
S u c h   l o v e .  
S u c h   k i n d n e s s .
S u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   c h i l d . .

I s o l a t e d .   A   l o n e l y   l i t t l e   m i s s .
W i t h   a   c h i l d h o o d   o f   p r a c t i c e .
A i m s   s e t   a t   s u c h   a   t e n d e r   a g e .
S o   m u c h   l o v e   t o   g i v e .
S o   m u c h   k i n d n e s s   t o   s h a r e .
S u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   c h i l d .

Y e a r s   r o l l e d   a l o n g   s o   f a s t .
T h e   m a n   o f   h e r   d r e a m s   a r r i v e d   a t   l a s t .
F i n a l l y   h e r   d r e a m s   w e r e   r e a l i z e d .  
I n   l o v e   w i t h   h i m .
H i m   s o   k i n d .  
S u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   h e r o .

S o   h a p p y   a n d   s o   c o n t e n t .
W a s   h e a v e n   s e n t   o n   a   p l a t e .
A   w e d d i n g   t o   b e a t   t h e m   a l l .
T h e y   l o v e d .
K i n d r e d   s p i r i t s .
S u c h   a   w o n d e r f u l   m a r r i a g e .

T h e   n e w s   w i p e d   a w a y   h e r   d r e a m s .
H e r   m e m o r i e s   w e r e   a l l   e x t r e m e s .
W o n d e r i n g   w h a t   s h e   h a d   d o n e .  
H e   l o v e d   t o   r o a m .
W a s   k i n d   t o   o t h e r s .
S u c h   w a s   h i s   d e m e a n o u r .

  C h i l d l e s s   w a s   t o   b e   h e r   r o l e .
T h e   b e a t i n g s   h a d   t a k e n   a   t o l l .
H e   h a d   t a k e n   a w a y   h e r   d r e a m s .
Y e t   s h e   s t i l l   l o v e d   h i m .
K i n d n e s s   n o   m o r e .
S h e   w a s   s u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   t a r g e t .

W a r n i n g s   h a d   g o n e   a s t r a y .
F r o m   f r i e n d s   s h e   h a d   h i d   a w a y .
S t i l l   u n a b l e   t o   w a l k   a w a y .
H o p i n g   f o r   h i s   l o v e .
S h e   d r e a m t   h e   w a s   k i n d .
S u c h   a   w o n d r o u s   d r e a m e r .

S h e   l i v e s   i n   a n o t h e r   w o r l d   n o w .
S u c h   m e m o r i e s   a s   w h y ?   A n d   h o w ?
A   l i t t l e   g i r l   w i t h   w o n d e r s   t o   f a c e .
S o   l o v i n g .
S o   k i n d .
S u c h  a  t r a g i c  d r e a m e r .

No more talking about if you’re not good enough. No more trying to fit in. No more calling yourself fit or ugly. No more with fighting, no more sadness in the air. No more you saying you’re sorry. No more killing or abuse. No more pain or regret. No more break-in. no more *****, no more ******* up to people. No more trying to be someone you’re not. No more hater or betrayal. No more broken dreams. No more false advertisement. No more wrongly accuse. No more lying to get your way. No more judging or back stay in other in the back. No more torture, No more tracks and skid. No more false hopes. No more stupidity. No more jealousy. No more disappointment or paddy nets. No more, time has come to say No more. Time has come to Stan together as one. Time has come to stranger than we ever been. Time has come to probe that we can be more then what we put out. Time has come to Stan together and say NO MORE.

we're always looking for someone
who will love us,
who will take care of us,
who'll make us happy.
But as soon as we find someone who does,
we push them away.
Maybe we're just afraid to love.
Because the most painful thing is
losing someone you really like.
And maybe we're just afraid to be happy.
Because happiness can turn into sadness
so quickly.

You are an ocean with deadly waves,
and I am the fool that loved to swim.

I see galaxies in your eyes
But I fear they’re made up of stars
Other stars
More stars
More than just me.

You circle my body,
a body mass so heavy black holes form in our chests,
our hearts beat like the atomic make-up of decaying stars
and our veins bleed colours only seen in the darkness of space.

Our bellies light up like the galaxy and our breath illuminates the air like an Aurora. We burn into each other and disappear into the wind, leaves fall into your red hair and com-bust leaving residue on your skin that light up like little stars.

Your body becomes pale like the Moon, and your teeth are cratered like the hollow bits that I can see on the surface of a full moon. Scars form at the tip of your porcelain skin, and I drown inside an ocean of cherry blossoms. I inhale you the way the ocean breathes the love of our moon, as moonlight reflects in the darkest night of this cooling summer, even the sun has forgotten your beauty.

I took a trip down to the sea,
down by the forest trees,
slow sun rise and eagle cries,

I am lost at sea.

I miss you.

Love Always,
Jay