i run from room to room
to the gas station
to school
to the store
to the mall
to my car
to the fields
to get away from
my feelings
and
you

but you and my feelings won't leave me alone
you both follow me wherever i go

i am going to have to run across the globe
for the rest of my life
to get away from my feelings
and
you

There was a boy named
Jack
In my class
Who took his life two weeks before
Graduation

Jack
Had a laugh that never sounded like
He was
Suicidal

A boy asked
Jack
To go fishing but
He said he had plans

He sent a message to five
Of his closest friends
And he called them
Family

One lived down the street
And they say he

Her
Sun
Stood alone
She watched his light flicker when
Mercury dipped Venus
Earth threw Mars in the air
Saturn spun Jupiter
And Uranus waltzed with Neptune
1
2
3
1
2
3



But
Pluto
Tapped her toes on her own
She watched her
Sun
Study Pluto’s taps
From 3.67 Billion miles away
And although they all danced
Her
Sun
Longed to hold
Pluto

I finally have learned the difference between being used and being a good friend.

I am a paradox
I love flowers, but I am not the kind of girl that you give them to.
I come alive at night, yet I'm afraid of the dark.
I am a messy person, but I like for things to be clean.
I have much to say, and say nothing at all.
I feel the need to run far, but despise running.
I am easily hurt yet I won't let you close enough to do that.
I have a wild heart trapped in a cage.
I am full of love but I won't give it anymore.
I love blue eyes yet I fell for brown.
I miss you but I don't wish for you.
I prefer being alone yet I hate being lonely.
I am complicated but easy to figure out.
I am neon pink yet prefer navy.
I am full, but I am still not filled.

when someone leaves you, reinvent yourself.
redecorate your soul with reds and pinks this time, instead of blues and greens.
pull the tangled weeds he left in your crevices, and plant as many flowers as you can think of in their place.
hang beautiful lights and magnificent paintings in replacement of his stupid poster of his favorite band that you never even liked.
paint your mind with vibrant colors that make your heart beat quickly.
and remember to never, EVER let anyone take these things away from you.

sometimes
we all need to shatter our glass walls
so we can remake those walls into glass castles