isn't it crazy to feel everything and nothing all at once?


people say hate and fear are the worst feelings..

No the worst feeling doesn't have a word.

Its the unspoken, full of hollowness.

my mind is constantly reminding me of this feeling. demanding i take up as little space as possible.

Every soul is experiencing such radical perspectives.
No matter how much you think you understand, you don't.
My
body
aches.
Hating what I've done.
Hating who I've become.
Where did I go wrong?
Has it been that long?
Have I forgot what it means to live but merely i exist.
Whatever the circumstance is I know I will live.
I will fight for health.
We are warriors of light.
In this hollow place.

We must thrive, or we shall die.

With every shift through consciousness I am awaken once more.
Wave after wave it flows through all that is and all that will ever be.
When I look at you I see eternity.
With all the passing faces we've had there is no union greater.
We have always been One.

Wicked the ego to tear us apart,
Warriors of light we are.
Withstand whatever comes our way.

Wrapped in your arms.
Wishing this was true.
Waiting for time to pass so I can be with you.

With everyday that goes by there's less time between us.

While I am me and you are you, we are somehow one.

Nothing questions by mind anymore. Only certainty.

Time justifies means. Distance means littles.

Who travels for love finds a thousand miles, not longer than one.

Fear or Love... you say?

You taught me how to love. Unconditionally.

We have lost time but that was the only way we could gain more.

My affection seems to isolate me in the deepest moments from all others, and it makes me speak with my whole heart and soul to you and only you.

Let light fill the void.

Be one with me.

              What fills these depths will never be purity.
Relapse
again and again and again.

Gasping for air, I sink lower
                                                    lower
                                                                          lower....
Into the unknown.
Where am I?



How did we get here?





Take it all away.







With a whisper of my name. I forget.






Only for a short time.

It's a scam

Flowers in her hair

Demons in her head

Drugs in her viens

Madness in her mind

Love in her soul

Storms in her heart

Let me

take

something.

anything

I need to feel     alive? Don't you.

Because we all do.

Don't judge simply because someone sins differently than you.

Hey I have an idea~

Lets destroy ourself and see who gives   a ****. With each passing breath I go deeper. Deeper into the thought that tomorrow doesn't exist. Because it doesn't. Why not see what happens in this moment.

All they come for is the lights. Flashing endlessly.

Overwhelming I stare at the sidewalk. A jab of pain hits my stomach. It's like the billboards  are killing me.


Because they are.

Life hits in waves.
The question is which wavelength will you be riding?
Believe nothing you hear. only which is true.


What is without conviction. What are you doing here?
His lips so soft on mine today.

Feeling no regret I earn for him more. He knows.

I slowly let out the smoke he blew in my mouth. We watch it as it curls down my chest onto the top of the warm water.

My hips turning while I watch him tell stories he's told too many times.. Restlessly. Flashes of his strong arms and thighs on top of me.. this persian man will forever remain in my memories. Innocent.

How crazy of a day. How young and free I feel. Picked up by young attractive boys who are writers, musicians and poets. Then to be dropped off hours later with no exchange of information. I fall in love with everyone I meet. I talked about my pack back home. They loved hearing my stories. Constantly asking questions.. I fall deeper

in love with the idea that I will stay loyal to my people forever. No matter what happens. I see friend units everywhere I go. Im very lucky to know that someone has my back as much as I have   theirs.
…….
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While perception creates reality, reality frees us from limitation.