the second you said
you didn't want to choose,
i knew you didn't
have enough faith in us to stay.

every time
i think i'm over you
you smile
and i relapse.

you succeeded where others failed
you undressed my mind first
now all my words are for you.

but what happens
when you find your soulmate
only it's simply not your time
life tears you apart
and before you know it,
days become years
that emptiness stays
knowing a piece of you
has been left behind
a phantom following you
reminding you of what you lost
what happens then?
how do we survive
knowing we've lost our very self?

worshipping you
is the only religion i know;
being alone with you
is the only heaven i want to be sent to.

maybe if i wrap our memories
in cellophane
they won't escape me
like you did.

i'll never understand
how you can both
light me up
brighter than the sun,
yet our memories
can still eat me
from the inside out
leaving me aching
like a black hole,
burning me completely.