Is there any buddy out there?

Am I the only one?

Could this be the end?

Is this site said and done?

Shall I post 1 million words and read them to myself

Shall I write 1 million poems and place them on a shelf

Within the womb
With in the mother
Have I yet to discover
Light beyond the darkness
Forcing me to breathe
Is there anybody out there
Or am I all alone
Life is but a dream
We cannot control
........

In the events of
Hell
Choose sanity
And hold on
Beware the quickness
Of the loaded gun

Turn down
Replace
Escape
Substitute a better fate

Leave such alone
Obsession spinning
Out of control

Survive to live
Another day
When these evens of Hell
Finally fade
....

In the free world
Our hands are actually tied
We dine on corporatism lies
Manipulated by
The camera eye
We purchase
The blood stain petrol
Our footprint
Digs deep in turmoil
Dark money
In our accounts
That's what freedoms
Here in the US
Is actually about
We oil the jaws
Of the war machine
Then feed it
With our babies
Freedom
Seems to have
Made the free quite crazy

And so I must apologize
For our lack of control
Even our votes
Are bought and sold
Propaganda keeps us blind
These hands are tied
Please keep that in mind
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May clouds of uncertainty be swept away
And the rainbow's end cast upon your day
May bright blue skies and deep blue seas
Be the only blues you feel and see
The seeds of love that exist within
May they grow to heaven and back again
And here and now may joy and grace
Paint a smile upon your pretty face...

She’s dancing and spinning in circles
Her arms open wide
The joy of life shining from her eyes
Her mommy and daddy love her so good
All her aspects so well understood

No dysfunctions, no issues
No wars to be won
Just beauty and perfection
And love by the tons

Unfortunately it’s only an illusion
And the truth is very sad
Her mother’s a low-down ******
She had *** with her dad

She may be coming she may be going
She’s not really sure
Her life is been moving so **** quickly
That her memories are a blur...

High in my sky
She shines divine
I smile knowing
This day is mine

Her ray of hope
Devoured the night
Releasing me from
The perpetual fight

Blessed are my shadows
They're clearly a sign
Out of the wilderness
A new piece of mind

In the coldest of days
In the darkest of nights
A simple display
A new breath on life

Dear Sweet Poetess
If you were mine
I would love you
To the end of time...
All your needs
As mush as I have
Dear Sweet Poetess
You drive me mad...
I must confess
My heart is in need
Your's are the words
I long to read...
Dear Sweet Poetess
You set my heart free!

The difference is simply
Our willingness to communicate
Thesaurus' can be quite confusing
If a word isn't in one's vocabulary
It takes the fun out of reading
Sorry didn't mean to offend!!!

Hell,
Punctuation gives me nightmares!

Don't you have something better to do?
I mean come on now!
Really!
Another post?

I'm sure your floor needs sweeping
And
There's a pile of clothes at the end of your bed
Your under arms are a bit stinky
Brush your teeth and comb your head!

My goodness...
There's a forest growing
Where your lawn used to be!
And the oil light is on
In your 2003
Ya, time to get a new Jeep

This week's ***** dishes have grown green
The trashcan smells like rotten meat
The world stands still awaiting your care...
And here you are
Wasting away with me right here!

There were times
When I too believed
I felt the freedom
Euphoric relief
The wings of protection
I surely had
Enough to keep me
From going mad
The silence of faith
I let it ****
My mind and life
Was never safe
Patients evolve
The riddles
We’re solved
No need for any
Solid
Physical law
While
Trusting in that
Higher call
.....


...

I’m getting old
it limits my pleasures…
I still feel young
behind these eyes…

I like to hike
out into nature…
I can climb
these hills for miles…

I’m getting old
beyond good measure
but I’m still young
behind these eyes!

Once I lived deep in a forest
My bleeding heart turned to stone
I disappeared out in the shadows
A hollow tree I called home

I know what it is to be a hobo
Train to train, same house twice
I know how it feels to beg and borrow
To share my roll with scratchy mice

Once I even tried to phone home
But the number slipped my weary mind
And when I finally did remember
It all seem such a waste of time

Do you know what it's like to be a hobo?
Nobody knows you when you're down
Memories haunt you like a cold wind
I was lost but now I'm found

Now I live upon a mountain
High above the raging sea
Timeless, old but not forgotten
This hobo nature inside of me...

A deeper inquiry
Is a priority
To catch
And identify
The complexities
   Of our reality...

Pay attention
To the nuances
Perhaps keep a tally
Apples and oranges
Are far from
    Jams and jellies...

Narrow views
Are often
Ordinary
Surely
We are more
   Than extraordinary ...

Try to keep
In mind
There must
Be more
To all this
Hocus Pocus
Then simply
What's literately
In our focus
...

But let your hardships go
Feel the freedom in store for you
No more guilt in tow…
No more regrets or worries
No promises left to keep
No one is worth more then you are
And now you are complete!

Deceitfully innocent
She runs the show
Cordially manipulative
You'd never know

I do her bidding
To secure our roof's
All my worth
Wasted in youth
She holds my deed
She knows my truth
She hides my keys
My only proof

In paths of duality
I follow her down
I am her shadow
I make no sound
I am the hollow
Inside her shell
I am the fire
Burning like hell

Emptily I ride
And somehow get by
She tolls the rope
I never ask why
................................

The interference of two wave
forms a new pattern...
The whole universe
is reflected in a single atom...
These things I can barely
rap my mind around...
But I just got to know
where the answers are found!

When your demon
Tried to shout
Your angel
Held it in
I could hear
Your whisper
Like a scream
Upon the wind
And so
Shall we make
This intellectual pact
May we never **** each other
With the words
Of matter fact
May we never
Hang a dagger
In fellow human's back
Surely for one of us
   The cards are holy stacked...

Lets pretend
There's no wars going on at this very moment
Hell let just write about beautiful things that make us happy
Those people hiding in foxholes and dugouts are not real
Ukrainian conscripts and dead Palestinians children...
All conspiracy theories, go back to dinner.
Why would we lose sleep?
Lets pretend and forget about being free.

You got to forgive me
I am only a man
Hungry hard
Active glands
Shallow depths
Eye that roam
Please have mercy
And let me come home!

it’s not me….

Ethnic hatred is below me.
There’s nowhere in this world you can travel that love is not alive and thriving!

I have no interest in gangs of propagandised thugs who never mention peace in their narratives.
Nor..
Finger pointing..
Gas lighting..
Lying politicians running every party that matters.

There’s no country, no society, no people on this earth that deserve to die.
I know better than to believe such lies!

Not pretending that your feelings
are not what they are.
Do you love?
Do you love strangers?
Do you love invisible spirits?
What lie shall we believe
As great as the evil in your heart
you could never love me.

And if you choose not to decide
you still have made a choice!

Sometimes it feels
Like we're just holding on
Biding our time
To the end of our songs

Somehow I know
There's much more in store
So many more paths
So many more wars

Somewhere awaits
A peaceful reprieve
For all of the Poets
And hopefully me

Woke up this morn
Everything felt right
Oh how I wish
With all my might
To leave behind
The burdens in tow
All that disturbs me
Let it all go
But then again
I've been here before
Running from demons
That cling to my core
......

When red is all I see
I **** my pen and let it bleed
woes, curses, miseries
This world is built
on envy, hate and greed

When love I aim to feel
I play guitar
upon my hill
Looking down on
the desperately broken
for someone to put
my last hope in
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Hope is carried upon subjective words
The manifestation of ideologies
Introduced into our objective realities

Yet I can no longer contain
A hope for what could possibly remain
Under hope's spell
The side effects
Of hope mania
.....

When suddenly
words come to me
I write them out
I scribble and scratch
separate a batch
turnaround
and reattach
scrapes of paper
scattered about
and somehow
someway
a poem comes out

Happily content I travel
Your cares I no longer suffer
I have no fear of nothingness
Pure wisdom is my buffer

Alone but not lonely
The world moves to **** fast
Bring it down to slow mow
Make this moment last

Greet me with your laughter
Trust me with your eyes
Let the time move pass us
On this wheel of life.

It don't matter
Where I land
Two strong feet
Stay I can
I love people
My smile is real
I love life
Especially when
Kindness kills
I know worry
It'll make one ill
An open heart
Could save a world
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Notice!
Silence seems to have
Taking over
It's Sunday morning
Am I the only one up
Or even sober?
Somebody, anybody
Sing me a song
A poem about cutting
Would be better then none
Surely some Poet
Has pain to covey
When you get home from church
Write what you may
I'll shoot you a heart
Some loving thoughts
HP is my addiction
This is the cost
.....................





...

Algorithms mapping
Trapping our lives
Programmed
To wake up
And **** in the night
Lap tops
Coffee hot
Device
In your face
Take your *** to work
   You'll feel better at play...

Yet algorithms
Can never hold
The opus of
The living soul...

The restless heart
A reverse polarity
When poetry's written
At a quarter to three

And so....
No thank you
Computer
I'm begging you please
Don't let the algorithms
  Choose the Daily!!!

I can’t be sorry
for my state of being..
I am the centre
of my own universe!
All else is outside
of my physical powers..
I shall take my pleasure’s
I shall bear my curse…
I am god
but I am human first!

Superstitious impairments
Tolerance gone extinct
Dark matter apathy
Evolution on the brinks
Extreme suffering
Existing in a void
Famine, torture, disease
Western bomb deployed
Somewhere in this existence
There must still be humanoids
....

Dear lady
I must warn
I am dented
Beyond repair
The point is simply
I've been kicked
Every-*******-where
I've lost worlds
Crashed and burnt
I've lost a dozen fights
Dare cheek I turn

But one thought of you
My heart skips a beat
Please be careful
Of what you seek!

I'm not
Burning bridges
Or trying
To ***** walls
I've no time
For grudges
Against people
For no cause

I won't be bought or sold
I've just one simple rule
Never feed a hungry bear
Or
The next meal maybe you...

Salivating
Reliving that rush
As the food hits the bowl
It's never fast enough
Tunnel vision
'Till completely gone
Lick it out
Sniff around
Crack smoking
Sensation
Hungry hounds
Twice a day
When the meal
Goes down
'Til then
Hungry dogs
Hanging around
.....

Could you ever accept
The truth
Shining from this cheaters eyes
Even if I told you my reason's
I could never tell you exactly why

But
I do advise you to escape him
And come to my side
I must warn you
I love to win
I am the hungry kind
...

Cast to the universe
This longing for forever's
Riding plasma streams
Eternal internal endeavor

Eyes of the sky
Outshine the nights
Stellar winds
Feverish flight
Shooting stars
With all our might

All we are
Implosive Quasar
Accelerating lives

Will it ever cease
This hunger to be
Can we ever get it right?

You are not alone
In your pain
All your understanding
Has been contained

Open your eyes
Beyond what you see
Forget what you think you know
And just try to breathe

Woven into the fabric of consciousness
Are the assumptions of reality
And the deception of imagination
But mostly a need to survive
Put down the knives
And walk outside

I feel for you...

You're not alone
In your pain
All your understanding
Has been ordained

Open your eyes
Beyond what you see
Forget what you think you know
And just try to breathe

Woven into the fabric of consciousness
Are the assumptions of reality
And the deception of imagination
But mostly a need to survive
Put down the knives
And walk outside

I feel for you...

Year after year of husbandry
I've come to know my flocks
The mutts are all but purebreds now
Their love and loyalty is my lot!
To the howling at the moon
To the coyotes across the field
Heckling laughter fills the night
  A hunger for the ****...

The crops are doing well this season
Still the buds will need to dry
I make my sacrifice of reason
Blowing smoke rings to the sky

And here my heart beats of wonder
As she lays down in my bed
She quietly calms the thunder
Going on in my head
I can feel the goddess
Deep within my sheets
I pray like a pagan
For my love and world to keep
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This may read
something like a rant
I wouldn’t talk in rhymes
but you know I can’t…
I can’t move my eyes
until the end of the maze
what’s happening over there
always happens that way…
you can’t hurry
the expressionism
poetry isn’t based
in professionalism…
so take your time
try to make since
exaggeration can help
makes your lyrics intense
………..

I have falling behind
And I can't keep up
With all the poets
On this HP buss
Silently reading
In airplane mode
Fingers tapping
Exposing souls
I can't keep up
I can't reload
Saturated in
Solid gold
...

I believe my truck
Is still in the driveway
Where I parked it
Last night...

My children got into a hateful fight, they tried to hurt eachother with all their might.
My heart was breaking as I broke them up.
Fist were flying in a loss of love..
Oh god I know now just how you feel and why going to war is against your will.

I am music
the cadence of soul
beat box of rhythm
lyrical poems
I am music
the inertia of dance
primitive passion
arising romance

I am music
of both hemispheres
intuitive and sensing
perception unaware
emotion in motion
routed in love
I am below
sent from above

I am music
I am love
Please never give me up!

So strong
My need to define
Meaning get lost
Within vague lines

What I try to express
In a poetic displays
Is as a Traveler
I realize
I can never stay

But I'll visit you
From time to time
From line to line
I'll try to rhyme

But reading you
Has been my greatest pleasure
I appreciate you all
Beyond poetic measure!

In the moment
I embrace reality
The realization of breath
In harmony with
The world around me
I believe the sun
Shall continue to shine
And Gaia
Shall continue to revolve
On into the night
And beyond my beliefs...

I haven't been writing as you know
Primarily dew to the ice and snow
The chill that sets within my bones
No, not a single message home

I haven't mentioned
My points of views
Now that
The frozen tundra
Controls my moods
Plow the drive
Shovel the walk
My frozen fingers
Can hardly talk

And you so warm
In your southern state
Where the winter chill
Is not your fate
Not even an extra blanket
Or a hot coco
Oh how blessed to be
Of a warmer soul!

Nearer to me then any one lover
My own flesh under these covers
Aches and pains and memories
Shall I anticipate another dream

Below freezing wind on my face
Gotta keep moving no time to waste
Love can turn into a forsaken storm
I gotta keep moving
I gotta stay warm
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Is it so hard to see
we are all spiritual beings!

These human identities have been manufactured,
in environmental wreckage!
Epigenetically manipulated
to fit society norms..

Now it’s time to take a new form!