i can hear the fireworks
             far away
i can hear the laughter and music
             of those who don’t want me there
i can hear the frowns and whispers
             of those who judge me

darkness engulfs me
              i am inside a box
for walls
which i wish to leave
and break apart

i am wanting to go
have fun
swipe the worried frowns
of their faceless crowns

but i am not being able
to br e   a    k
this box
a p a r t

I am both flames and snowflakes.


I'll explode into sparks then I'll calm down like the falling snow.  

I will challenge your comfort zone, but I'll fight to stay in mine.  

I will feel fire in my heart when I am passionate or angry,

I will feel a blizzard when I am curious or afraid.

I will always rise, even if I fall.

I will roar louder than the mighty lion or slither quieter than the sly snake.

I will forgive without thought, or I will wear revenge with grace.

I will become completely attached to you, or leave without thought.

I will tear my barriers apart or build garden gates.

I will be bold, or I will never speak.

I will authentically be myself, or what I need to become.



I am simple, I depend on you.

it stands high above
proud of its shine
everyone is enchanted
by the silver-light

they write poems
sing songs
and proclaim
how romantic she is

oh what a lovely scenery
of the moon upon the
paris skyline
oh how beautiful is the moon!

sure its majesty
is some thing to behald
the contrast between night
and light

but one must always remember
that the moon shines
because the sun
lends its light

i look at the sky
and all i see are your eyes
i smell the forrest
and all i scent is your cologne
i feel the rose ‘s petals
and all i caress are your lips

and my body swells
and my blood heats up
my head is spinning
and it looks like i’m flying up high

is this how love feels?
like walking on the clouds?
like all that feels you is air
and butterflies inside

i am a fool
my smile won’t fade
you’re every whisper
inside my head

and i might break into song
if you i see you pass
may kiss your lips
if i have the chance

though deep down
once the drugs fade
and my blood turns cold
i remember the talks
i remember the stones
that we carried into battle
one that we fought
but oh so poorly
that we lost

i look into your
light blue eyes
and travel in deep
to this unknown universe
carved by your soul

i wander down
the lanes of your sorrow
down the roads of regret
and i take it all in
learn your mines by heart
tattoo the blueprints to my heart

i pick out
the tiny precious stones
that lay hidden on your mines
hold them in my hand
carry them in my heart

i travel down
all the way to the bottom
of your dangerous mine
any second now
and the earth will come
falling down on me
crashing me and my dreams

but i can’t help
wandering down
your danger mines

the night is made
to say things we never meant
we intoxicate our bodies
transform it on its true self

i think it is funny
how when the sun is up
we walk around praising our life
caring for what the world thinks
pretending to be what we are not
putting on masks
so thick that you could never
ever tell they are fakes

but then the sun goes down
and shine its true light
on the moon
poisoning our veins
luring our hearts
to beat faster
and sing the truth out loud
making us confess
what we would later deny with light

they force me to come
where the ivy once grew
flourished between the noise
and the ocean’s dance
loved agaisnt the sun
kissed between the sand

and i arrive
to that forgotten place
where the only life left
is of that of the sea
and the stars
where once the crowds gathered
and i was happy
but those people were gone now
dead
just like the magic
and the ivy
that once grew around the white house
and flourished against the sun
filled with life

i can’t stand
the rain against my window
can’t stand
the symphony of drops
tapping gently on my door
can’t stand
the rythm it evokes
and the uncertainty
of it all

i look out of my window
and the sun is up and high
shining its blinding light
feeding the eternal flowers
then the sun dies
and out of the blue
the rain starts
the clouds cover the sky
so dark
so deep
they cry in sync
so sad
so dim

and i cry with the clouds
pour down on my room
over my bed
against the pictures of you

and i cry even harder
when the clouds leave me alone
to cry to myself
because it is still dark out there
and there’s no one to keep me whole

and i can’t stand
that feeling i get
when the clouds cry
and wet my window
with their tender tears
can’t stand the feeling i get
when i think of you
and cry my eyes out
picturing your touch

i walk beside the sea
sing at the horizon
at the fish and birds
i look into the deep blue
how it gets greener near me
how it’s so blue far away
how your eyes were  just that blue

and then
the waves of your memory
crash into my rocky heart

and before i realize
you are by my side
walking shoulder to shoulder
you slip your fingers through mine
palm to palm
and i stare to your eyes
a vivid riptide staring back
and the freckles the sun gave you
smiling at me around your rosy lips

and before i realize
i have left my body
i have left earth
i am somewhere else
up in the sky
walking with you

i wish i could change my stars
wish i could reach them with my hands
place them in my eyes
mold a new fate
start anew

i wish i could erease the past
wipe it clean
paint a new begining
a new me
a new you

i wish i could create new words
gift then to you
so you could sing them to me
play them on your strings

i wish we could love as we once did
forget what was
bleed a new story
spoil us with love and happiness

i wish for so many things
to change our stars
our lost love
our forgotten hope
but the stars are far away
and my grasp is too weak
to hold you in my arms