Morning

Morning Jan 2018

I am like a roller coaster
A twisted creaky track
Taking you on my ups and downs
Never holding back
Looping through the disarray
Of an introverted maniac

You hit that final drop
Around the last bend
Then to a full force stop
Some will have fun with me
Others maybe not
But in the end,
They all well get off
And leave me without a thought

I am like a roller coaster
A twisted creaky track
Behold the out of service sign
Sorry, no more riders.
I'm now completely wracked

#roller #coaster #ups #and #downs #wracked #leave #me #without #introverted

Morning Jan 2018

That one friend

My body created music for you.

                                       Did you hear it?     I heard yours.

The sound of joy... The sound of laughter...

                                         Did you hear the bliss in our banter?

It was a beautiful harmony, you and me together


...But ... Now...
It's just dreary song no one hears forever repeating in my ears
Forever a reminder of what I have caused
And everything that I have lost.

:'(

#music #mistakes #ex #friends #lost

Jan 2018

Raven

Promises of Infinity

They say “I love you,”
They say “I care,”
“I’ll never leave you
I promise, I swear.”
But time passes
And promises fade,
The love is lost
You’ve been betrayed,
They left, they’re gone
Just memories remain
Playing on repeat,
Can’t ease this pain.
Fell for the soulless,
The one with no heart,
The devil was once an angel
And heaven and hell aren’t far apart.

#depression #love #heart #sad #sadness #memories

Morning Jan 2018

Save Yourself

You remember that one time... You remember? When you were alone in that one place, with that little bottle,
it was half full. You remember?
I was there as you cried alone in that dark room whispering, "You have no meaning here in this life".
One By One they entered you but if you truly wanted to die, you would have taken a hand full.
You remember.
And as much as I hate you, I don't really want to see you go. Our life is fun sometimes, don't you know.
So once again,
I save us...

Yes, I know you really want to go but if there is a GOD, she'll see your pain and take you home.

#save #yourself #sad #depression #mental #health

Jan 2018

Fox Friend

Let me give up

I live to be noticed by you.
But you never notice.
And you never will.
So now I must find a new purpose.
But I'd much rather just not live.

#suicidal #heartache #desperation #depression #suicide #suicidalthoughts #live #die

Morning Dec 2017

Sympathy

There is no sympathy in this world.

           Not a care for that little girl.
     Don't get stuck
     Do not ask for help,
                   For they will look down on you.
      You will be left on the shelf.


Get back in the game
    Do what you must
Be like me and pick yourself up
    Heal those scars
           Tape them up
    Forget their names
           And the pain it brings up,
    It doesn't matter how
             Just get back in the game,

There is no sympathy in this world.

                       Fixed.

             Bullet to the brain.

Having sympathy for yourself and allowing yourself to heal, at your own rate, is very important to some of us.

#sympathy #scars #healing #poem #not #*** #care #for #they #will